Ask Matt: The Breast of Both Worlds
January 16, 2012 by Matt Kailey
http://tranifesto.com/2012/01/16/ask-matt-the-breast-of-both-worlds/A reader writes: "I'm a gay trans man about four months on T, and I'm making plans to schedule top surgery soon. Although my overall gender identity is pretty much binarily male, my sexual identity seems more dual-gender, in that when I'm feeling aroused, nipple stimulation and visualizing myself with a mixture of both male and female physical features really turns me on – including the fact that I have breasts. This tendency to sexually fetishize my breasts has gotten stronger since starting T.
"Since I identify overall as male, a muscular, masculine-looking chest is something I really want, and I don't think I'd be satisfied with just a reduction. I'm finding top surgery to be much more difficult to follow through with, though, because I'm worried that part of me may regret removing my breasts, even if it's only when I'm aroused. I feel prepared to accept that possibility, which is why I intend to go through with it. I just have no idea if I will still have a desire to fetishize my chest post top surgery, and if so, I have no idea if I will still feel able to any more, especially if I lose all sensation in my nipples.
