Hi Lea,
Welcome to Susan's. We are all family here, so you are quite safe. You can discuss or ask just about anything (within the ToS) without being shouted at.
You have a great, winning attitude and strong focus on where you are going. These attributes will help you immensely in your journey.
Surround yourself with good, strong, positive, nurturing people; and you too will experience the unimaginable that is there for everyone.
Looking forward to hearing more from you in time to come. Keep in touch and let us know how you are coping. In the meantime, be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine