Quote from: Cindi Jones on March 17, 2007, 05:50:48 PM
Actually, I've often wondered if there isn't a paraphilic element to it. I don't know. But I have wondered.
I HATE Blanchard's theory... because much of it rings true for me. Not everything, not the specifics, but the overall theme scares the heck out of me. It's *probably* his confusing a description of how this evolves for an actual *cause* of that evolution, but STILL.
There's an interesting article on the "transkids" site called, "The Gender Identity Fallacy: How an Irrational Concept Prevents a Rational Understanding of Transsexuality," By Alex Parkinson. When I read:
This aspect of sexuality is what needs to be appreciated in ->-bleeped-<- in order to explain gender dysphoria in biologically heterosexual males; only looking at the most explicit expressions of ->-bleeped-<- like masturbation while cross dressed, actually misses the bulk of how it's experienced. In a lot of ways, gender dysphoria in biologically male heterosexuals is analogous to a normal heterosexual male with a crush on a girl they're attracted to. The difference is that in these transsexuals, they have a crush on an internal girl that they would like to be, rather then an actual person, precisely as one might expect of a male heterosexuality that was directed at ones self.I read that and was like... yikes... NAILED me. See my avatar over there? Well gee, think I've personified this whole GID thing a bit much? This description IS what it "feels like" for me, though that doesn't make it a cause or pathology. And it wasn't always this way, not as a child. But over time, that frustration condensed and manifested into an actual, semi-seperate entity I call my "muse." And yes, I'm in love with her in some bizarre way, even though she IS me. But I see it as a RESULT of GID, not a cause.
The essay made a LOT of sense when I read it, so when I'm done it's like, "wow, so much for gender identity!" But it's kinda like when you watch a movie - it makes SO much sense when you're IN it, experiencing it within it's own context. But then there's a commercial break, and the spell is broken.
What it's taught me though is I don't think ANY of the narratives or theories fully explain all this. It's kinda like the particle/wave thing: pick the theory you need in order to manifest the phenomena you want to study... don't assume the phenomena you observe dictates a singular Explanation Of Everything.
Hey! I gotta write that one down. "Pick the..." Got it. Cool.
QuoteI've also wondered in the past if a simple castration would not have solved my GID.
One of my reasons for starting HRT - will my feelings change once the sex urge of testosterone is gone? I figured in my case, that urge must be manifesting SOMEHOW, since it wasn't showing up as an actual urge for physical sex.
Yea, lol, everything became 100x more clarified and WORSE.
Kate