Made my first appointment!

[teamcaptain]

So, Tuesday.  That's the day I plan on walking into a GT's office to proclaim my desire to transition.

I'm 35, with a wife who has no idea.  We have a kid on the way.  I feel so screwed up. 

But this anxiety is killing me.  I haven't been able to focus on anything for years except this...possible life that I once thought I could keep surpressed.  My nerves have been on edge ever since.  The poor girl taking the appointment must have had a time hearing me with my breaking, brittle voice.

Anyway, anyone have any advice? 

[Catherine Sarah]

Congratulation !!!

Best decision you have EVER made. Making that first step equates to 85% of the issue. The rest of it is going to be relatively ?? easier (Said with much hopeful optimism)

Best advice is, just be yourself. Nervous, trembling, optimistic for the future, truthful. Then nothing can go wrong. It's you.

Is your therapist conversant with TG issues??

Wishing you all the very best and every success for Tuesday

Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[teamcaptain]

Thanks, Catherine!

I feel confident I've made peace with what I need to do to overcome this anxiety / dysphoria, so I'm just going to lay it out there.  I've overcome (mostly) my fear of accepting who and what I am.  It's just the whole telling everyone else thing and the fear of what damage I might do to others that gives me pause (read: sends me cowering to the corner to cry).  That and the whole I can't look in the mirror without being disgusted with my masculine face thing. 

This therapist is one that's listed on most of the TG sites for my state.  Thank goodness he's just down the street!