Very powerful testimonies, LynnER and Tink, I'm glad you stepped in. Myself and togetherwecan can only speak of what we've seen, but you can speak of your experience.
I suppose Jocelyn is lucky, she figured out that she's going to transition well before she hit that type of breaking point. She's has a pretty strong GID to be sure, it would be impossible for her to even attempt the act required for having children. Maybe that's the difference. She knew there was something wrong early on and when hunting for the answer. After she read "She's Not There" by Jenny Boylan, Jocelyn decided that she wasn't going to wait until she was married and maybe had kids and had for the most part wasted most of her life in a male body. Unfortunately, we simply do not have the financial resources for therapy (not to mention we havent' been able to find one in a reasonable distance) or HRT or electrolysis or anything. I go to school fulltime and I can only barely support myself with whatever money I manage to get. But she's only working part-time at a drugstore and has a lot of trouble motivating herself to find a better job. She says she tries by putting in a few applications, but she rarely follows up on them. I find myself spending my student loan money paying not just for my rent and living expenses, but I usually pay for all of the groceries, the laundry money, and I've covered her part of the rent a few times. She wants to transition but it's like she has absolutely no drive to pull together the resources neccessary for it.
I hope it's not wrong for me to be frustrated with her. Everytime I hear her piss and moan about her life situation, all I want to do is tell her to do something about it and shut the hell up. It's so frustrating.
