Help! Freaking out about SRS even worse!

[Icephoenyx]

Ok, so I really need some help. I know I posted here not too long ago about how I'm scared to death about my SRS w/ Brassard next week. It's only been getting worse. It's all I think about, it keeps me up at night, and when I do sleep I usually have 'worse case scenario' nightmares about the procedures. I feel sick to my stomach about it all day every day.

My friend was also telling me that I'm in over my head because I'm getting my BA done at the same time, and therefore I'm partially asking for it by getting two major procedures done at the same time. But I've already paid for the BA and it's cheaper to get them done all at once, so I am trying to tell myself I've made the right choice.

I have been wanting this for a long time and I know I my life will change with the results. I guess it's the anticipation that's going to be the end of me.

[jsorter]

Relax,You will be fine huni.  And congrats on the new you. I am totally envious of you but in a good way!

[Kristyn]

When I was in Montreal there were a couple of people who had a breast aug with their srs and they did fine.  They didn't seem to be in too much discomfort at all.  Once you get to Montreal things should change.  They'll treat you well, feed you and fill you up with Xanax and other nice things.

[spacial]

I remember your the last time you raised this.

You need to think carefully about what it is that is frightening you, or creating the apprehension.

If your mind comes back with a storm of many different thoughts then write them all and post them. If you don't remember them all at once then post again when you remember.

[Gretchen]

Lots of women do both surgeries at the same time and they end up ok and so will you.

[Cadence Jean]

I remember your the last time you raised this.

You need to think carefully about what it is that is frightening you, or creating the apprehension.

If your mind comes back with a storm of many different thoughts then write them all and post them. If you don't remember them all at once then post again when you remember.

I like this idea too.  Get that out, write them down, and then really think about them.  Some may be rational, others irrational.  Us on the forum can probably give you our opinion on which is which, since we have an objective perspective.  Are you seeing a therapist?  Maybe you can sneak in a quick session prior to your surgery.  Really, if you're as anxious/nervous/panic attacky as you sound, then you might want to consider post-poning the part that scares you the most - SRS or BA.  I mean, you have the money, you can always get the other part later, right?  It's not like the opportunity will pass in the next several months.  This is such a major surgery that I would suggest being very confident in what you are about to undertake.

I had an orchie on Saturday.  I'll admit that there were certain thoughts about it that scared me - complications, the healing time, the pain, the "what if I want to go back at some point" question.  I rationalized it out and talked it out with my BFF.  There's a solution to anything that I might run into as far as complications, and the "what if I want to go back" is kinda silly, since I've already killed my testes with the hormone therapy, and the fact that this is something that I've wanted for many, many years.  Once I got on the table, I was strangely calm and all the nerves left me.  I knew what I was getting into, had weighed the consequences - the advantages and disadvantages - and decided that the advantages far outweighed the disadvantages.