Quote from: oZma on December 12, 2012, 06:10:28 PM
now I obvy pass, but I beat myself up over being a ->-bleeped-<-... but then again I've only been fulltime for like 8 months
I don't know if getting a vag will help or not, but my Dick has really stared to cause me anxiety lately, along with my hairline, and my small butt, and my big head (girl hats don't fit me), my height!, and my wide waist, wide chest, my silly fake boobs, and my FFS surgery scars, and my voice, and my big hands, and my big feet, and my lack of socialization as a female, and my overt awareness of having once been male and trying to make sense of it. oh and don't forget having facial hair cause blonde hair is still prickley, and my concern over whether or not new friend will like me or not when or if they find out I have a penis. and dating, that ->-bleeped-<- sucks ! s
if you don't have to trans, don't
however... if given the chance to do it again? would I still trans? yes, but I would have done it earlier :-) because I feel like if I would of had less time developing a male persona I would be happier, at least thats what my brain says LOL
or maybe I'm just a crayzy person?
OMG!! I'm not the only one with these same thoughts!!
Yes! Trying to develop a male persona was what my life was previously...I felt I never fit in...I felt I was always trying to be one the guys..ugh! wish I wouldn't had! Some of that persona is still their!!
It was much easier to let go of trying to be a guy and to just be myself!! I'm not trying to be anyone but me!! It's still difficult though at times, because I feel I'm still this guy because of whats in between my legs!!! UGH!!
I'm hoping many of my fears are in my head like I think it is with you...obviously none of the things that are causing you anxiety are noticeable....I know that's easy for me to to say but harder for you to see for yourself.
If I were to be honest with myself...the only manly thing about me is my PENIS!! with my hairline coming a close second. All my other features are simular or in even better proportion then a cis female.....but that's not what I see!!!
Shelly
