I hope things improve for you Jossef. It wasn't all that long ago when that attitude was world wide. When I began 19 years ago, there were only 7 other FTM in my country (Australia) and there was NO information on the internet. I lived in a small country town and had a baby to raise. I was called 'it' and was constantly told by my 'friends' that I would get a good bashing if I ever used the men's room. And my mum told me it would be easier if she had heard I was dead. (She NO LONGER feels this way, understands SO much more, god bless her).
I had to leave my home where I grew up, to be myself and access to Dr's. Many of us have, and many of us still do. It's not right but for now, for some it's the only way. Maybe you will need to move too.
Not knowing what country you are in, I'm not too sure what to suggest as a first step. For me it was reading, reading, reading, then I made phone calls hunting for a Dr/psychologist who could help me.
