Just normal

[Gretchen]

I am ten weeks post op now and I just feel normal. After the surgery I felt liberated, free, untouchable by the masses who despise us, and after a week of euphoria I felt normal. I was not overwhelmed with the joy that I had had but more like a calmness that can be only describe for me as normal. I do think a little differently now and it's more like conformation, there is no doubt of who I am, I am Gretchen and I am normal to the way I perceive it in my head.

[Steffi]

Yes, it soon feels just normal.  Once the soreness had gone, I felt as if I had never been any other way.
After about 6 months, although I can remember intellectually that I used to have the other stuff, I cannot connect with those memories - it all became very hazy and I cannot remember how it felt, nor can I actually picture it there when I look down when naked.

Welcome to the rest of your life   

[Re: Joyce]

You are correct about just feeling normal in your brain.   All those awful thoughts are gone and so is the anxiety you lived with all your life.  After a while, you wonder how on earth you ever survived those times.

      I read recently the thought that a transsexual was a person who wanted their condition fixed and a transgender is a person who simply lived with it and enjoyed it. 

       I can tell you that, after my surgery, I'm no longer trans anything.  I am a woman and I really feel good about it.

       Like Steffi said, it's hard to imagine that I've ever been any other way.

[spacial]

So pleased for you Gretchen.

Read your posts here. You're quite a spark really.

Thank you so much for this information.

[Gretchen]

nor can I actually picture it there when I look down when naked.

Welcome to the rest of your life   

It's funny you say that when you look down naked, a couple of hours before surgery I was taking a shower and I told myself to focus really hard and remember that little worm. Well not only did I not focus on the little worm I ended up focusing on how small the diameter of the drain was. Hmmm that's odd, I guess everything is small in Thailand. I realized this hours later while I was getting penetrated by an enema hose.

[Gretchen]

I read recently the thought that a transsexual was a person who wanted their condition fixed and a transgender is a person who simply lived with it and enjoyed it. 

I have thoughts on this and some of it revolves on the dreaded do I pass phrase, which I hate.

[Gretchen]

You're quite a spark really.

Clearly I am not the only one, Thank you Spacial