Quote from: N.Chaos on February 29, 2012, 01:49:47 AM
Maybe its because I'm with someone I know I'd rather die than be without, and he's fine with my bits, and maybe its just because the near-apocalyptic loathing I have for my chest outweighs nearly everything else, but I don't want bottom surgery. At all. Ever.
To me, its not the same at all. Because nobody is going to see my screwed up downstairs besides my boyfriend. Its not like my chest, where I can't go out without layers on, even during the disgustingly hot, humid summer. Its not something that literally interferes with my physical comfort and ability to breathe. Its something I piss out of, and something I, to be blunt, really enjoy my boyfriend being in. So, I'm fine with that.
Is it weird? Hell, yeah its weird. I know its weird. I know I'm a gigantic walking joke, and maybe I'm growing a bit as a person or just becoming cynical in a new and exciting way, but I don't care. Let me be a damn joke. Let me be a fake and a bull->-bleeped-<-ter, and whatever else anyone else thinks up. At this point, it barely registers.
And hell, I wear makeup. I'm sure some people one here, though they've never said it, would love to sling "fake" at me, and I don't blame them. I'm not, never have been, and never will be Joe Average.
And I'm totally fine with that.
People too busy judging you as "fake" aren't people I'm all that interested in knowing. People with the bravery to speak their individual truths as you have, I find are the people I want to get to know most. The kind of people I would love to "break bread" with, as "they" say.
Good for you for saying just how you like your body touched. It's your body, it's your right to have it touched or not touched in any way you like. Whatever happened to " My Body My Rights." When did so many in the LGBTTIQ community decide for themselves that it was just fine and dandy to police every other member's sexual habits, or gender expressions?
Oh we'll rail and scream and protest for days, if a mainstream straight person does it, but if a MOT (member of the tribe) tries to judge another member's way of being, well you end up getting a crowd, judging things they ought not stick their noses into. It's analogous to the DOMA types screaming about how gay marriage harms the family and the institution of marriage, and yet say nothing of dirty old bastards in their 60s and 70s, and even (ug) older marrying children. And yes, at 15 you're still a child. Or at least you should be allowed to be one. Or the multiple marriages that are now fodder for television producers too cheap, or lacking in an sense of creativity, to hire WRITERS. To write good stories. But I digress....
I truly admire your conviction in walking your own path, in spite of judgements that in the end, mean nothing. And are really a reflection of the one judging.