I thought I always had acne, but I was wrong. I never had it like this before. What I've always had is oily skin, blackheads, whiteheads, little zits that have a head and don't leave marks if you pop them, and freakin gigantic pores.
What I have now started within my first month on T. I get zits that seem to form like deep inside my skull or something, zits I can feel long before I can see them. I had one in my forehead recently and I honestly thought for a couple days that I had bonked my head on the bunkbed (it's got metal parts that everybody hits their heads on cuz they stick out too much), and only realized I didn't when the zit started having a surface presence. Jesus.
I love my skin on T, though. It's thicker and darker and more uniform. Yes it's more disrupted, but I feel like even that helps me pass. I'm still not friends with the occasional weeklong giant zit that doesn't even seem to have pus in it, because my gosh, eww, but I'm getting used to it. Mine hurt but don't leave scars. I'm not too worried about facewashing products or habits; the main thing I really need to learn is not to touch my face so much. I touch zits with my hands the way I worry at cavities with my tongue. It's just hard not to.