I'm Her Big Brother (Do any others feel this way too?)

[Amazon D]

I murdered that other person. they are dead and i am glad.  They were never my friend. You ask how i did it well i stuck them with needles until they died a hormonal death.   Ok my confession is over. Call the police  i am a killer.    Oh i also cut their testes off too but i had help with a dr spector who had shakey hands so i did most of the cutting. Yes that nasty person is gone and i am happy i did it and i would do it again.    

hey thanks all for not calling the police.. i am sure you all understand. he had to be killed.. wow its so great to have such great understanding friends as i have here. 

[Jamie D]

I had always thought of my feminine side as another person also.. but she and the male side weren't the only ones around

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Yeaa... sounds pretty crazy... but i felt rather "divided" for a very long time (I guess that comes with splitting your life into a "male" life and a "female" one for so long?). Actually, after I started hormones, much of this went away...  I feel much less "split" so drastically.  ((and again, I knew they weren't real! Just was a good way for me to think about things to put my thoughts in order)).

Rabbit, I always felt I was two persons in one.  My girl inside is Jamie.  Jamie only got to come out from time to time, and never in public.

Yeaa... sounds pretty crazy...

Actually, it sounds like the makings of a good party

[Naturally Blonde]

No, I'm younger than both my sister and my brother.....and they are both bigger than me!

[supremecatoverlord]

I used to make a similar analogy, because Jason was who I really was, but my outer shell was preventing me from being him. I had to put on a guise for so long that I sort of did live a "double life". However, I wouldn't say there are separate personalities for every single part of me, because the life I lived before was not entirely lived as me. It was lived as a fabricated lie. I can't say that a feel any connection to who I used to be when I feigned happiness just to not stick out like a sore thumb. The real me is Jason and any wall I put up in attempt to hide him was made of lies.

[Jen-Jen]

I responded this on a Simular topic: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,112691.msg857935.html#msg857935

Hmm aren't you really still one and the same?of course the outside changes..but its not like 2 different people inside is it?I've always thought its more like I'm playing a part pretending to be normal to everyone else

to me there is two, kinda like this......

In a way... yes! I hate him. He kept me locked away and hidden from the world. Yet, He did his best to protect me from harm. He was a good man and I know that many people miss him. But, John couldn't stand to keep me locked up anymore. And so he gently took my hand, stepped aside and let me free.
There was a sad look in his eyes when he did so. For he knew that I would be taking a very hard path in life. He knew that we would lose family and friends. And it hurt us both dearly. But he also knew that I would go on with his strength and stubborn determination. And I would forever be myself.
That's my romantic way of looking at it. ^_^

just beautiful and very romantic! great description!

I love the Man I was. He is wonderful! I wasn't locked away, I chose to lock myself up and let him lead and protect me. He is a great man, the man every girl wants to marry,he is a real prince charming, he is loyal, faithful, strong,compassionate, a hopeless romantic, a good Samaritan always helps those in need. He is my night in shining armor. But just as John, he couldn't keep me locked up any longer. He took quite a few blows to his armor, he faced the dragon for me, fought it and it cost him his life! But as he died he told me he loved me and that he had set me up well in life and that I can do this! That he had taken all the pain and heartache for me! He cleared the way! I miss him severly!

May be im just crazy, but its what I feel/know.