Feeling Old At A Young Age?

[King Malachite]

I'm 20 but on occasion I do feel a lot older like my life is more than halfway over.  It's not a constant feeling but I feel "aged".  I even look aged. I know I haven't even started to live my life but I just "feel" as if there's not much left in my life to do.  I feel like I "may" have another good 10 years left and after that it's all downhill from there.  I think a big part of it has to do with my trans issues which I can't do much about right now.  Has anyone felt that way before?

[Devlyn]

I'm feeling pretty young at 50! Hugs, Devlyn

[Jam]

Yeah I think so. I'm not much older then you but sometimes I feel like Im nearing retirement lol.
I sorta have a split personality I guess, it's like half the time I'm immature for my age and the other half I'm too mature.
It may feel like you've done everything and maybe you have done everything you wanted to do up to this point in your life but that doesn't mean there won't be other things you want to do later.
Like you said it could be the trans thing. Back before my transition started I didn't really have many ambitions because I didn't care about myself enough to do them I guess. Everything I wanted to do, I wanted to do as a man.
Is that how you feel?

[Alyx.]

You need to see an age counselor.

If they determine you're mentally healthy, they can give you young blocking pills and olderdol and you can be what you feel you are.

Stay strong. There is hope.

[King Malachite]

Yeah I think so. I'm not much older then you but sometimes I feel like Im nearing retirement lol.
I sorta have a split personality I guess, it's like half the time I'm immature for my age and the other half I'm too mature.
It may feel like you've done everything and maybe you have done everything you wanted to do up to this point in your life but that doesn't mean there won't be other things you want to do later.
Like you said it could be the trans thing. Back before my transition started I didn't really have many ambitions because I didn't care about myself enough to do them I guess. Everything I wanted to do, I wanted to do as a man.
Is that how you feel?

I think that's a part of the reason.  I don't have any ambitions at the moment other than the desire to transition.  It's like being like an empty walking shell.  The only thing I can do right now is graduate college, work to save enough for top surgery and living expenses to move out of my moms place but that's going to take years and it seems like those years will never come and that they are far away so it's taking a toll on my mind.

@alyx  I've never heard of an age counselor and I googled to see if there were any near me but there wasn't.  Even if I could see one then it would just go back to me being trans and my mom would probably just kick me out if I dared to transition in her house.  It would be hard to since then again, there just aren't many trans-friendly resources near by.

[Jam]

I think that's a part of the reason.  I don't have any ambitions at the moment other than the desire to transition.  It's like being like an empty walking shell.  The only thing I can do right now is graduate college, work to save enough for top surgery and living expenses to move out of my moms place but that's going to take years and it seems like those years will never come and that they are far away so it's taking a toll on my mind.

@alyx  I've never heard of an age counselor and I googled to see if there were any near me but there wasn't.  Even if I could see one then it would just go back to me being trans and my mom would probably just kick me out if I dared to transition in her house.  It would be hard to since then again, there just aren't many trans-friendly resources near by.

Yeah I used to feel like that, I'd want to do something and then I'd just think well what the hecks the point. Do you know for sure your mum would react badly? People can suprise you. I thought my dad woul be fine and my mum wouldn't, turned out to be the opposite.

[King Malachite]

Yeah I used to feel like that, I'd want to do something and then I'd just think well what the hecks the point. Do you know for sure your mum would react badly? People can suprise you. I thought my dad woul be fine and my mum wouldn't, turned out to be the opposite.

I've dropped hints to her in the past and she pretty much knows but we never talk about it.  I feel if we don't talk about it then conflict will be kept to a minimum. She uses religion and ignorance as her defense.  On top of that she will think that I only feel this way because I'm on the internet a lot and she may cut the internet off as a way to "combat" it.  Keep in mind that I also have online classes to tend to as well.  My dad reacted badly and one of my sisters reacted badly andI haven't told my other sister yet so I'm stuck with no hardly family support.

[Pica Pica]

I feel like that sometimes, but I think it because I spend most of my working day with five year olds. We watched London receiving the news of the olympic bid on our class today, and realised that me and the teacher were the only people in the room alive at that time.

[Jam]

I've dropped hints to her in the past and she pretty much knows but we never talk about it.  I feel if we don't talk about it then conflict will be kept to a minimum. She uses religion and ignorance as her defense.  On top of that she will think that I only feel this way because I'm on the internet a lot and she may cut the internet off as a way to "combat" it.  Keep in mind that I also have online classes to tend to as well.  My dad reacted badly and one of my sisters reacted badly andI haven't told my other sister yet so I'm stuck with no hardly family support.

Ah I see well that's a pretty rough situation to find yourself in =\ . Just don't loose hope, the important thing is one day you will be able to be yourself. Try not to stop yourself doing the things you want too though. Having some enjoyable things in my life, even little ones helped to give me a break from the doom and gloom sorts of feelings I had. If you ever need to talk pal feel free to PM me if you want or not that's up to you. I can understand the feeling old thing though, I don't think you only have 10 years worth before things start going downhill. You won't be in the same situation then, if anything they might have been looking good.

[King Malachite]

Ah I see well that's a pretty rough situation to find yourself in =\ . Just don't loose hope, the important thing is one day you will be able to be yourself. Try not to stop yourself doing the things you want too though. Having some enjoyable things in my life, even little ones helped to give me a break from the doom and gloom sorts of feelings I had. If you ever need to talk pal feel free to PM me if you want or not that's up to you. I can understand the feeling old thing though, I don't think you only have 10 years worth before things start going downhill. You won't be in the same situation then, if anything they might have been looking good.

Thanks mate.  I'm shooting a pm right now.

[Felix]

You need to see an age counselor.

If they determine you're mentally healthy, they can give you young blocking pills and olderdol and you can be what you feel you are.

Stay strong. There is hope.

I love this.

[luna nyan]

If they determine you're mentally healthy, they can give you young blocking pills and olderdol and you can be what you feel you are.

From what I've heard, oldosterone administered IM has a better effect - those wrinkles just come in within weeks! 

On a more serious note, when you feel stuck in life and unable to progress on something that is important to you then it becomes hard to be positive about things.

Try and focus on daily goals - that's much more manageable and will present you with short term achievements which will make life more rewarding.  I set myself short, medium, and long term goals - with everything short and medium term stepping stones to where I want to be 10 years from now.  It's what keeps me sane in my current situation.

[kelly_aus]

An interesting topic..

Myself, I don't feel or act my age at all, in fact, I seem to have a case of 'arrested development' that started in my late teens/early 20's.. I see myself as about 20 - just managed to squeeze a whole lot of living in to that time.. I have a friend who is 17, and whilst she claims to feel a lot older than that, she and I mesh mentally and emotionally quite well..