I'm so confused..

[Jaehjlee]

I've just really been confused with myself lately..more than half the time I'm attracted to girls and I want to appear/act as masculine as possible. But then there are some times when I act more feminine because I'd be interested in a certain guy. But the thing is, I'm emotionally and physically attracted to girls, while I'm only physically attracted to guys. Does this make me bisexual?

I also really want to start trying to pass as a male (short hair, bind, ect) but a huge part of me is holding back because I'm afraid of how the guys will view me. And it's also because I occasionally feel more feminine on some days too. I've always believed I'm a FTM, but I'm starting to doubt myself.

[Felix]

I'm emotionally and physically attracted to men, but I'll sleep with or follow an intimate narrative with a girl here and there. I don't much identify as bi, but technically I guess I am. Pan probably makes more sense.

Also, gay doesn't have anything to do with masculinity. I'm small and sensitive and educated, but I'll attempt to take anybody in a fight if the circumstances demand it. I can sleep anywhere and survive almost anything, and I'm only really scared of the past. I'm pretty masculine by a lot of definitions, but that's not caused by or a product of liking girls.

I get laid far less easily since transition, so, ah, yeah. It does create some barriers. I won't deny that.