New and Scared

[Billie2012]

Salutations, I am Billie and need help and answers, maybe a bit of guidence.  I came out of the closet almost two years ago to my wife and during which time there has been some healing.  I thought if I gave up a little truth, I would be able to hold back the rest, sadly I was wrong.  My truth is I am in a body I am not supposed to be in.  The truth is that I was brought up with abuse and hatred and submerge in a lake of fire by the bigots in my life.  The truth is I have been a coward all of my life, just wanting to be accepted.  The truth is I can't handle any more days filled with crying and trying to hide my tears behind the covers of lies like, "I am fine."  The truth is I am scared of this new path of acceptance and the future.  And I am scared of losing all the people I know as friends and family,  the ones I have lied to, just to be accepted.  I don't know where to begin, I am not sure of what support is available, I need some guidance and knowledge for me to begin the birth of my new life.  Thank you.

[Catherine Sarah]

Billie? .... They're for you.    Use them when necessary.

A warm Aussie welcome to Susan's family. You are safe here. And we understand, appreciate and know EXACTLY how you feel.

Take a breath, get a cup of tea; relax and feel at ease.    You're at home.

Susan's is family, by choice. Not by birth or marriage. We've been where  you are; and there IS life beyond. Sometimes beyond your wildest expectations.

Maybe spend some time in the "Coming Out" section and see the hopes and dreams realised. There is an amazing amount of information, resources and relationships to be had here. Dive in and immerse yourself in love, warmth and acceptance.

Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[Constance]

Welcome, Billie.

Catherine said it perfectly when she said that here we're a family by choice. That's a great way to sum it up.

Coming out is never easy, and the only way to know what will happen when you do is to do it. I lost my marriage, but my ex-wife and I are still good friends It takes getting used to; to learn to be friends again after being spouses. It wasn't easy, and I'm still adjusting.

And, as Catherine already pointed out, the Coming Out section is probably a great place to start.

Jump in and ask around. We're here for you.

If you haven't already done so, please review the site rules and terms of service.

Enjoy your stay!

[Edge]

You are not alone. I am also scared, also a survivor, also suffered depression, and also tried to hide myself to fit in.
I'm still lost in the gender issues, but I have a lot of experience with abuse issues, depression, and self esteem issues. While my own self esteem issues are an ongoing battle, I do know a lot about how to heal them. (It takes a lot of practice and time for the brain to rewire itself which is why I'm still up and down.) If you want to talk, I am perfectly happy and willing to listen and offer what advice I can.

[Felix]

This site is a good place to begin. Welcome.

Helpful links:

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar/post links and photos)
  
• Age and the Forum
  

[Jamie D]

Don't be scared, Billie.  You have friends here who understand what you are going through.

[Devlyn]

Hi Billie, it's nice to meet you! This place is a gold mine of information, but more importantly, friends. Hugs, Devlyn

[RachaelAnn22]

Welcome Billie,Hugs,Rachael.

[gennee]

Hi Billie and welcome.