I'm glad to see that so many of you guys are doing fine with your mom's, and I guess I was
looking for an easy explanation as to why I never got round identifying with the female, being
a biological girl, and instead chose the opposite.
It's just what I heard from (bad) therapists, pointing in that direction. I'm still very very glad I'm
everything but a blueprint of my mother. The moments when I feel I want to cut her out of my heart
oddly contrast those when I feel I want to get everything right for her because her life wasn't really
much fun.
For the moment, with x-mas coming up and all that, I've agreed to a temporary cease-fire - that is, if
she doesn't start annoying me too much again - which is one of her specialities, and holidays and the
festive season is one of her favourite times to do it! I guess I'll be in trouble next week anyway, because
I agreed to take a dog in for the holidays while the owners are off to Spain; I've been knowing for weeks
now, but i'll have to sell it to her like I only got the news...tomorrow, so she can't say anything. Well, she
probably will, but what the heck! I'll get paid for taking the dog, and as I'm rather skinned at the moment,
this is a welcome 200 EUR for our x-mas budget (smoked salmon and bubbly after all! Yippee!)
If it all goes belly up, I can still put put all the dogs in the van and head out camping in the woods - nice