I don't like drama and try to avoid it every chance I get. But lately, three weeks ago, my "best friend" of four years made it clear she never wanted to talk to me again. Every time we made plans to hang out, she ALWAYS cancelled. She's been doing this for a long time. I called her out on it, and she made it look like it was my fault. She was accusing me of cancelling on her, which irritates me, because I've never cancelled, I'v e always been there, waiting for her to show up. Anyways, that stuff aside, now she's out of my life. I'm actually glad. But what really crushed me, was my other best friend of two years who is also my singing teacher (the same girl I have a huge crush on). She charges an unfair amount for her lessons, I confessed how I feel about her and she said "we can be friends" but she's only ever texted me back once and when I say "let's hang out" she doesn't follow up on it (I'm not out yet btw, and I'm not even presenting as male at all). She also forgets to give me back change she owes me and she's done that more than once. Two weeks ago I couldn't make it to her new opera she was in, and she acted all disappointed, which surprised me. Now I just feel like she wanted me there just to make her look good because I was her student. I want to get a new voice coach, but I tried not talking to her, and that messes me up. I feel like I'm all alone, and I know I've got you guys, but I've been crying myself to sleep for the past three days because I don't know what to do with this girl. I don't want her to use me anymore, and the only way to do that is to stop talking to her. But I can't bear that thought. So ya. That's what I've been up to for the past month. How to cope in this situation? Have you ever been used? Was it a friendship? A love interest? Both? How did you deal with it? This has made my suicide thoughts much worse and I'm worried of something happening.
