My name is Shauna and I am new to Susan's. Where to begin?!?!?
I am a 30 y/o pre-op MtF transsexual and have been on HRT for almost 3 months. I was in denial of my GID for many many years, though thinking back over my childhood, the signs have been there since my preteen years. I finally came to terms with my GID about 3 months ago after several years of extreme depression and immediately sought the help of a gt and an endo experienced with HRT treat for tansgender people.
I came out to my wife of 6.5 years within a few days of meeting with my gt and prior to seeking HRT. She tried to be understanding and supportive at first, but that ended after a couple of days at which point she decided she wanted a divorce. We continued to live together for the next 1.5 months for logistic reasons, during which time I suffered extreme emotion abuse. She has since moved in with her mother (1.5 hours away) and I have moved into an apartment. I have 2 amazing children (9 months and 3 years) and they are the light of my life and I miss them dearly when they are not with me.
Since beginning HRT I have had a level of mental clarity that I did not know was possible, and the depression and anger I have had for so many years are long gone also. I am also very happy with the physical changes that have happened so far. I was nervous about living by myself since I never have before. However, it has been a wonderful! I get to be me always (except at work, which would cost me my job which I cannot afford). I love not having to hide anymore and have discovered that I am a happy smiley person which I never knew before. While my (ex)wife continues to attempt to beat me down emotionally, I have discovered that my newfound happyness prevents her ability to do so.
I guess that's it for now, time to get to work :-(
I look forward to getting to know you all!
Hugs
Shauna
