I'm sorry for posting one of these....I'm sure their are loads of others like it, but other than my partner I have nobody else to tell and dammit I want to shout any progress I make from the roof tops. I feel like writing down what I've actually achieved so far will help me keep pushing to get to the next step. Feel free to post your experiences so far too, I'd love to compare notes.
I've been on anti-estrogen for...erm...I don't know, 2/3 months? I had high natural T levels before starting, so removing the estrogen has allowed the T to do what it's supposed to do. I should be starting actual T shots any day now, I'm just waiting for the call that it's all sorted.
My general mood and attitude to life is 10 billion times better. I just feel uplifted and positive for the first time in...well ever. I'm much less emotional and able to think more clearly. I am more able to let little things go rather than let them stew and fester out of proportion. For example I've always been very particular about keeping the house clean, and my partner is very messy. Things like forgetting to wipe the side after spilling coffee or leaving his stuff in the middle of the hallway used to make me so angry. Now I'm just like, meh whatever. I still keep the place clean, but a few dirty dishes is no longer the end of the world.
The first change I got pretty much immediately was a HUGE jump in libido....and sorry if this is TMI...downstairs is now much more reactive. I can feel myself getting a boner basically. I don't tend to examine the area much so I don't know if it's bigger, but I couldn't feel it before, so it must be.
Next came ACNE....this sucks, a lot. I'm so greasy now it's unreal. I've always had nice clear skin so this is a nightmare. I could fry chips in the grease that comes out of my pores each day. I'm also much sweatier, which also sucks. I'm needing to wear deodorant for the first time in my life, and it smells different, much stronger. I'm your typical greasy sweaty teenage boy.
Next I noticed hair growth, I'm generally much hairier all over. My peach fuzz is now black and thicker than before. I get a bumfluff moustache I actually have to shave. It's very cool when I lick my lips and feel hair there.
My voice has dropped a level, this is my favourite part. I have much more bass to my voice. I was very hoarse and had a super sore throat literally after the first week, which then went away and left an awesome voice change. I can now talk without concentrating over the phone and on xbox live and nobody so far has questioned that I'm a guy. I used to get refused security clearance on a lot of my official accounts because I sounded like a girl and was listed as a man on their systems. I used to have to get my partner to pretend to be me to get anything done.
Last but not least I seem much more motivated to exercise now. I've been chubby pretty much my whole life and never been interested in physical activity of any kind. Now I run 4 miles a day and go to the gym to lift weights 3 times a week, and I don't have to force myself to do it. I enjoy how pumped my muscles feel after a good workout and I'm much stronger than before.
So if you made it through that rather long self centred post I commend you, and encourage you to post your own progress
