Last night, for reasons that are not important, I went out in guy mode. While out and about, I ran in to a bunch of people that I knew. All were somewhat surprised about my appearance and a few of them suggested it was the funniest 'male fail' they'd seen in a while.
Any way, this brings me to my dilemma. I went out, first to a local bar and then to a club. I must confess I had a great time. But the dilemma is that I didn't hate being in guy mode, in fact it was kinda fun. I don't know if it was because it reminded me of one of the few periods in my life that weren't entirely hellish or whether a facet of my existing personality got to come out and play.
My being genderqueer is something my therapist has mentioned before, he makes a good case for it.. But see myself as a woman, admittedly a somewhat masculine woman, but a woman all the same.. Could he be more right about me than I think he is?
