I'm new here, and while my doctors shrug off my ambitions to become a guy, i have been talking to other people about it and trying to figure it out on my own. the problem is i cannot find any up to date information that isnt from years ago to verify that the surgical techniques available are even accurate anymore.
I was looking into the phallo surgery because i wanted to be able to perform, i was admitedly discouraged by the assistance devices considering the fact that i wanted unasisted, which made me look into metidioplasty, but then I realized that i would not be able to perform in the more intimate aspects of my life because of the size.
i havent even begun down this long road yet, and im sure by the content you can tell i really dont know very much. im concerened about being ably to pay for any of this as i am disabled and cant work, how will my healthcare cover any of this? I really am quite sad about all of this because im venturing this road alone. Ive potentially lost a relationship due to coming out about wanting to be a guy, and ive also been afraid that no one is taking this seriously. i dont have any transgender friends to talk to which is why i came to this forum.
i dont really know what to do, but is there any information online that is from the year 2012?