Hey everyone,
I am Danielle and I am 24 year old from Sydney Australia. I have just started my HRT for about 6 weeks into it now and am extremely excited over my changes that have happened. I've always been terrified that I could never change (transition) considering my body, musculature and bone density, which is large and muscular- yet curvy in the right spots? Anyways, transitioning so late for me was because I always felt that medication/HRT would not be possible for a person of my body type and doing so would end up me being in this mutant combination of a man with long hair. So basically I had no faith in HRT. I've always disassociated myself from my birth gender as I always felt essentially like a girl stuck in this boy costume that I could not take off. I've read, seen and heard of people where they are disassociated to their birth bodies too and moreover with their penises. When I was growing up I always felt my penis was just an attachment and under it was a vagina that was hidden and somehow my penis would fall off at some stage in my life (I would have been around 8 or so when I believed this). But now I don't find it a horrible entity that isn't a part of me, I believe it is part of my body but doesn't mean I play with it-let alone let anyone else play with it.
Anyways, I'm finding it a little bit unbearable sometimes due to the hormonal rollercoaster...with my mood swings and what not. Lately, I've met a man who is kind of seeing me, kind of not. He is very understanding and totally understand the whole transitioning progress with transexual girls -mtf. He is a great friend and lover but lately due to the mood swings I have started lashing out at him and I realised I needed some friends that are or have gone on the same road as me. I just want to talk to other tgirls and make new friends. I'm finding it hard to find tgirls where I'm at because all the asian girl tgirls in Sydney seem so bitchy, jealous and incredibly territorial with their friends and boys, so I try and avoid them as much as possible and the white tgirls around me don't seem to exist? Or they work in brothels, which is only a few doors down from where I live and I've never seen out in daylight!
So yeh, so far I'm not living full time although after six weeks my boobs have enlarged to a solid handful (I had gynecomastia ever since I was a child despite me having such a large solid build!), and my hair is growing too -long enough to put into a little pony tail. So I do get a lot of people giving me curious and sometimes friendly looks because I look almost freakishly weird hahah. Basically I look like a asian/pacific islander samurai ninja dyke - who knows I might start a fashion trend? Hahaa
So thats basically me in a short nut shell. I hope I find new friends and support here.
So Hi, I'm Danielle... I'm a male to female transexual in transition.
