Hello,n new here, new to dealing with my confused gender feelings

[dky]

Hi. For 10+ yrs I have had the thought come over me when I'm alone,"you are male". I've been an ally of trans people for about the same time length. I generally put the thought of being male away and ignore it. It returns and occasionally I let myself think about it.there is something both wonderful and deeply painful there.i have never shared my feelings with anyone. I present as moderately femme, queer, hardcore trans ally. There has always been something else to deal with that let me put this away. I'm not sure just what is different today that I decided to go online and seek a place to talk. I know all my local resources and most of the local trans community members.I'm not ready to be out.i don't yet know if there is anything to be out about. I also have two mental health issues, which I wouldn't normally share but both may affect or be affected by my gender uncertainty. I'm bipolar and worry if I did want to, would I be able to take t? I take a few meds currently for bipolar. The other is why idk if these are really my feelings. I also have multiple personalities. Some of them are definately guys.I'm confused if what I feel is what they feel or if it belongs to me. I don't remember childhood so I have no idea if I felt male back then.I'm not sure how to sort this out. Hopefully my mental health disclosure won't make me a pariah or a source of either pity or fascination here.I'm just a person, like you. I hope talking about gender stuff will help me sort this.thanks for listening.

[V M]

Hi dky 

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[Devlyn]

Hi dky, it's nice to meet you! There are no pariahs here, you are now part of our family and will be treated as family. BTW, it's your turn to do the dishes, take out the trash, walk the dog, blah blah! See you around, hugs, Devlyn

[Jamie D]

dky - welcome! I'm in southern California.  You find a number of people here with similar experiences.

[Ms. OBrien CVT]

Hi dky,

Welcome to our little family. Over 6976 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another member.


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[dky]

Thanks everyone for the warm welcome. Devlyn, lol. I was just wondering how I could get you to take out the trash and recycling, walk the dog, do the dishes,vacuum.....
I'll go read those linked pages I haven't already. Again, thanks.H