16 days until SRS....

[jessicas37]

If my current self could only go back in time one year and tell myself on june 30th you will have your srs. I would probably not have

believed her. This past year has been a whirlwind of life and emotions. After being on HRT(this time legally) for about 6 months i

decided i was going to tell my wife. Well to say she didnt take it well is an understatement. Since may of 2011 i have lost my House,

Business(owned a chain of computer stores),retirement,stocks,ect... I still have the love and suport of my son who never left my side

I thought my life was over, i tried to drink myself to death, tried to kill myself many times but i always pulled through(though it sounds

dumb i didnt want Jason on my tombstone i wanted Amanda.) Now i am living in a house the size of my old garage, all the cars are

gone(i collected corvettes) and i ride a bus to work for a competitor. I realize i am at this moment happier then i have ever been in my

entire life.

I have learned alot on my journey through womanhood and i must say that life truely does get better just maybe not the very next

day. When i open my eyes on July 2nd the world will not stop moving, their will be no parades, no cheering section, i will open my eyes

and look into the eyes of my son and girlfriend and just smile and move forward with life....

Amanda Leigh Beaven
DOB 7-2-2012

RIP Jason 7-2-2012

just my jumble of random thoughts.

[MyKa]

Great story, i wish you the best of luck with the srs!

[GhostTown11]

Wow you've come along way! Enjoy your life, you deserve it

[Catherine Sarah]

Go for it Mandy.

Sounds like you are on the right track. Hold true to yourself and you will achieve ANYTHING you put your heart to. I guarentee that.
May July 7 be such a profound day for the rest of your life.
Be safe, well and happy.

Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[Dale]

I wish you all the love and happiness in the world!

[CryssL]

Great story—Congratulations!

[LadySerraphym]

C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ! ! ! !

I cannot wait until I will able to say those words. I am jealous. But in a good way. I am very happy for you.

[AbraCadabra]

Honey you REAL, so REAL!
I'm touched and in some ways your story rings many of MY bells.

I wish you MUCH SUCCESS with your op(s) and many happy return on the day.

Love,
Axélle

[jessicas37]

Thank you all for the wonderful words of support and encouragement! Only 12 Days to go! I feel

like a 4 year old waiting for christmas. Everyday i get asked "So are you nervous?" And i reply

"No way i have been waiting for this for 38 years!". I will have a you tube video from plane trip to

surgery. DR Pichet said my GF could be in the theater and film the whole thing :-) i look forward to

following up with everyone when i get done.

[Catherine Sarah]

Go For It
You awesome Go Girl.

Colour me green with profound envy, BUT soooo happy for YOU.

Huggs
Catherine

[cwrukid2012lakeforest]

Good luck

[juliekins]

Well to say she didnt take it well is an understatement. Since may of 2011 i have lost my House,

Business(owned a chain of computer stores),retirement,stocks,ect... I still have the love and suport of my son who never left my side

I definitely wish well, and know that you will do fine with your surgery. I did quote the above about losing so much. If you care to share, did you lose it or give it up in divorce court? The reason I ask, is that I also gave up so much to become the woman I am today.

Looking back, I gave up so much as a result of my own low self esteem. I sold my business to raise cash for surgery, but will now admit that I was afraid of confronting my customers as my new self. Now, 4 years later, I realize that I should not have had this fear. I also would never have agreed to alimony payments which were not necessary.

I caution the other people on Susan's to be very mindful of your state mind during your coming out and final transition stage. Sometimes we are willing to give it all away out of guilt or low esteem. I'm not saying you did, but rather that I did. Be careful!

[RosieD]

Thank you, that was beautiful.

Love Rosie

[cwrukid2012lakeforest]

good luck