sometimes it really sucks to be a transsexual....

[Tristan]

yeah. just keep moving foward. hang out with good friends, and go do stuff. surf, skydiving, the theme part movies, whatever. if your cool with yourself, alot of times others will be too. hey on my next school break we could even plan like a 10 people beach party r something in good old Florida.

[wiigirl]

You should have stared at him and laughed loudly back. Probably would have taught him a thing or two

Definitely....own it! 

[auburnAubrey]

yeah. just keep moving foward. hang out with good friends, and go do stuff. surf, skydiving, the theme part movies, whatever. if your cool with yourself, alot of times others will be too. hey on my next school break we could even plan like a 10 people beach party r something in good old Florida.

Well, I am moving forward.  I awoke with some very nice peace today.  Luckily, I have GREAT friends. (Haven't lost a single friend.).. So I'm moving forward... maybe a little slower though.  I'm still doing my FFS, but I think I'm going to wait to do my BA. (I'd rather do that with a doctor near me anyway...  Besides, Miami plastic surgeons know a thing or two about BA!) 

So, I'm back on track.  I'll look at that fear and conquer it once and for all, now that I know where it's coming from!

Thanks for everyone's support.....  You rock!

[Tristan]

Well, I am moving forward.  I awoke with some very nice peace today.  Luckily, I have GREAT friends. (Haven't lost a single friend.).. So I'm moving forward... maybe a little slower though.  I'm still doing my FFS, but I think I'm going to wait to do my BA. (I'd rather do that with a doctor near me anyway...  Besides, Miami plastic surgeons know a thing or two about BA!) 

So, I'm back on track.  I'll look at that fear and conquer it once and for all, now that I know where it's coming from!

Thanks for everyone's support.....  You rock!

yes the do. a miami doc did my tata's as well. and i love them!

[wendy]

yeah. just keep moving foward. hang out with good friends, and go do stuff. surf, skydiving, the theme part movies, whatever. if your cool with yourself, alot of times others will be too. hey on my next school break we could even plan like a 10 people beach party r something in good old Florida.

I like parties.  Ten people might be a tad conservative.  Miami is a long drive and I am in neighboring state.

Well some things are nice.  Are we allowed to have fun?

[GhostTown11]

To hell with that douchebag. Don't let him rain on your parade. You are doing what you have to do and what you want to do and he's only threatened cause he probably fancies you or whatever.

[Nicolas]

You ladies are absolutely amazing.

That's all.


- Nico

[monica93304]

Aubrey. You rock! Keep on moving forward sister.

[Julie Wilson]

My thoughts are with you.  Continue to find your strength.  Don't know what else to say, may good luck and providence be your constant companions.  Same to everyone who goes this route.  ^_^

[Keaira]

I spent most of my life trapped in a life I didnt want and couldnt cope living in. Now I've almost reached the beginning of my real life. I've cried a lot because of the trials I've faced. I've felt joy that I never thought I could feel in the milestones of my journey.

Just getting my name changed across 2 continents has been a bittersweet victory. My Parents live in Scotland and Germany. Even as I was typing this I was texting my Dad that it's done. While I felt such relief and happiness in getting my social security card, it feels kind of empty without them here to have come with me. And I felt like I was putting the final nail in his son's coffin when I told him.

He said: Then it would seem that I have less of David in all ways.
me:  Perhaps... But you have more of me.

Dad:  Got to get back to work.  Have a great day young lady.   Love you xxx
me:  I love you too Dad, very much. Don't work too hard. xxx

I was crying as we talked. I think it was the finality of it really. lol.

Nothing worth having ever comes easy. I think if there's one thing being trans will do, it's test your convictions, your morality and relationships. But in the end, despite any tears, you come out a better person. You come out of these trials as yourself.

[crazy old bat]

I can't think of any given moment in time that it doesn't suck to be transsexual.

[wendy]

I spent most of my life trapped in a life I didnt want and couldnt cope living in. Now I've almost reached the beginning of my real life. I've cried a lot because of the trials I've faced. I've felt joy that I never thought I could feel in the milestones of my journey.

Just getting my name changed across 2 continents has been a bittersweet victory. My Parents live in Scotland and Germany. Even as I was typing this I was texting my Dad that it's done. While I felt such relief and happiness in getting my social security card, it feels kind of empty without them here to have come with me. And I felt like I was putting the final nail in his son's coffin when I told him.

He said: Then it would seem that I have less of David in all ways.
me:  Perhaps... But you have more of me.

Dad:  Got to get back to work.  Have a great day young lady.   Love you xxx
me:  I love you too Dad, very much. Don't work too hard. xxx

I was crying as we talked. I think it was the finality of it really. lol.

Nothing worth having ever comes easy. I think if there's one thing being trans will do, it's test your convictions, your morality and relationships. But in the end, despite any tears, you come out a better person. You come out of these trials as yourself.

Thank you for sharing.  I told my 81 year old dad because I was going down to see him with two grown children.  He told me that he would have preferred to die and not know.  He was only person to tell me my feminized face looks ugly.
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Community is nice and I have fun with them.


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[auburnAubrey]

Thank you for sharing.  I told my 81 year old dad because I was going down to see him with two grown children.  He told me that he would have preferred to die and not know.  He was only person to tell me my feminized face looks ugly.

You know that came from what's inside him, and not what's inside you, right?

People always fear what they don't understand... and that fear comes out in awful ways sometimes...

Just like my fear (and perhaps all of our fears) in transition comes out in crappy ways. (crying, bitching, etc)

Doesn't excuse it, but just look at it as a man with fear inside, and then find compassion for him not being able to find the strength to conquer that fear like you did.

[wendy]

I can't think of any given moment in time that it doesn't suck to be transsexual.

Dogs are nice.

Community is nice.

Frankly I do not want to go back.

I love every morning not having to shave my face.   

I continue to love to dream and my dreams are more beautiful.

Young children totally accept me and I can make them laugh.

I am blessed because I experience things only a few of us understand.

Guess what?  Sometime it sucks not to be a transsexual!

Think of all those guys that make fun of us and want to be girls!

You have to laugh.  Life can be funny!

Each time a guy makes fun of us picture them in a BoPeep outfit.

[Michelle G]

In August I am going to Seattle for a high school reunion, of course I have to visit and stay with my parents one night, I just know the second I walk in the door my over critical mother will be all over me about my longer hair! There is no way on earth I am telling them about the reason it's longer...I can't even begin to explain how awful that scene would be.
Of course this trip has to be in full boy mode...ugh

I would so love to go to the reunion with my head held high in my cutest outfit with perfect hair and makeup! That would be oh so much fun!
From the pix I have seen of my old classmates, time has not been very kind to them....these are the same guys that all thru the school years would tease by calling me Michelle instead of Michael....well, look at me now guys! And you already know my name!!  Bitter? Who me?

[Cindy]

Just found this thread.

Aubrey you are a very good looking woman, your neighbour is probably as jealous as hell. People whom are confident in themselves don't want or need to be rude to others because it doesn't accomplish anything. So people who are rude to us are usually jealous of us. It fits into the same sort of Gay bashing religious fanatics who are themselves Gay; and scared.
As for Axelle's hairy backed person (like that term BTW Sis) it is pretty obvious that he is either impotent or inadequate. The only reason men keep picking up woman who dress like that is that they cannot relate to woman, they just want fantasy people.

Michelle,
I realise your parents are a separate issue and I do not know the problems that exist. But please please woman go to your class reunion as Michelle, spend some cash and get a professional make over, look and present like the red carpet girl. Rub their snouts into it.

Goddess that would be so liberating and so empowering.

Go girl go!!

Cindy

[Julie Wilson]

I am a sham and a complete failure.  Transition has been so expensive and there have been so many sacrifices that I have nothing and by the looks of it I will never have anything ever, not even a decent Social Security pay out.  I remember before transition, thinking that god had cursed me.  When I transitioned I no longer believed in god and that gave me the strength to do what I needed to do (transition).

But my life is a joke.  I have posted on this forum and other forums talking about living as one's true sex after transition but the truth is no one will allow me to do that.  Tonight I was outted on the job as a ->-bleeped-<- and due to the nature of my job it is now unsafe for me to continue working there so I have no job and I am deep in debt.  This is my third strike BTW, I'm out.

Transition was a waste of effort for me.  I will never be allowed to be who I am.  The cold reality is that's how it goes sometimes.  And maybe I was expecting too much or maybe I needed too much out of transition.

Anyway, if anyone needs a good laugh you can laugh at me.  I am tired of struggling just to have next to nothing and I will welcome death with open arms when it finally comes.

Also I shouldn't post this.  Everyone who reads it will hear something different.  Everyone is right and nobody is wrong and being wrong is right because everyone is right all the time cause we are all just doing our own thing.  And no one understands me but that's because I'm different and we can all share but no one will understand.

[Keaira]

Noey,

I'm sorry about your employment and financial issues. it can happen to the best of us. I know how hard it can be when your co-workers know you are trans. It really does suck. I've been there and still am. But, while you consider your future, don't write it off just yet. Part of the sad truth is that part of being trans is being able to tough out some pretty hairy situations. It's why we have such a high suicide rate. Between a world that think we are freaks and porn stars and the loss we endure, I almost feel like it's a trial that most Navy Seals couldn't pass.

So don't let them win and drive you down. Get up, dust yourself off and just be you! No one is better at it than you! *hugs*

[Falcon3268]

I am a sham and a complete failure.  Transition has been so expensive and there have been so many sacrifices that I have nothing and by the looks of it I will never have anything ever, not even a decent Social Security pay out.  I remember before transition, thinking that god had cursed me.  When I transitioned I no longer believed in god and that gave me the strength to do what I needed to do (transition).

But my life is a joke.  I have posted on this forum and other forums talking about living as one's true sex after transition but the truth is no one will allow me to do that.  Tonight I was outted on the job as a ->-bleeped-<- and due to the nature of my job it is now unsafe for me to continue working there so I have no job and I am deep in debt.  This is my third strike BTW, I'm out.

Transition was a waste of effort for me.  I will never be allowed to be who I am.  The cold reality is that's how it goes sometimes.  And maybe I was expecting too much or maybe I needed too much out of transition.

Anyway, if anyone needs a good laugh you can laugh at me.  I am tired of struggling just to have next to nothing and I will welcome death with open arms when it finally comes.

Also I shouldn't post this.  Everyone who reads it will hear something different.  Everyone is right and nobody is wrong and being wrong is right because everyone is right all the time cause we are all just doing our own thing.  And no one understands me but that's because I'm different and we can all share but no one will understand.

Noey, hang in there.  One of the toughest things about going through the transition is never backing down, keep fighting.

[AbraCadabra]

When there is LOTS of rain it often feels there will NEVER be any sun again - then surprise, surprise it will show up.
If we down in the dumps it feels just like that... then something better will come along.

Remember "If the world got you down on your knees – you're in an excellent position for prayer and supplication"

And! "You can't always get what you want. But if you try sometime you will find, you get what you NEED.."

Don't pray for something you do not really need/want, think about it - .

Maybe, just maybe ... this job is NOT exactly what you NEED... and I'm NOT speaking of finances here.
I had jobs I didn't 'need' - and I also 'lost' them, for better or for worse.

Hang in there, and get a rest –.
A tired mind is prone to see things a lot more negative.
Hugs,
Axélle