Hi Ashley,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. Congratulations for coming to terms with all your feelings and moving forward with them. Makes such a difference to your quality of life when you are openly honest with yourself like that.
Hope to hear more about you in time to come, but in the meantime, there's a mountain of information, resources and friendships for you, so just drive and ask away.
Be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine