Hrm, I don't know where to start in this update. I've decided on a name. Merik. It's the name I would've been possibly born with if I was born in the right body. I've made a few new friends who know me only as that name, which is nice, they don't need to know the past identity, and I'm glad they respect that.
I have a girlfriend, who's very accepting. I'll hopefully be starting T by the beginning of 2013, and the thought came that scared me; what if she were to stop liking me because of it? I asked her, and she gave me the best response I could have anticipated. "Of course not. I mean, you're already a guy." So, having her around has made me feel a lot better and much less dysphoric.
In May, I found out that I'll be on a waiting list for top surgery. I have to wait two years, of course, but that's the average time it takes, right? I'm just happy to be on it. And, soon be able to consent to a hysterectomy. I'm just counting down the days until then, haha.
Hrm, I've started up a routine of exercising, taking Tribulus and Argin Max. I'm going to cycle them to correspond with my menses. Off during bleedy-time, on the other three weeks (and I'm really regular, so this plan will work.) I've noticed that I've been a lot less emotional since I've started to take them. And my sex drive's gone out the window, which I find odd since Argin Max is supposed to increase it -shrug-. But, it's sort of nice, being able to concentrate on things like summer school (I'm a noob, okay), and books and not have the nattering thoughts about sex bothering me all the time.
This seems to be all I can think to talk about. After summer school, I'm going to be vacationing/working in my neighbouring province, and staying with my grandparents. I'll most likely have a job which is labour intensive, for ten hours a day. I'm scared I'm going to die with my binder, but I'm pretty excited. I'll be there for a month, so I hope to see some results on my body. And even if I'm not working, I'll most likely be kept busy and active, helping my grandfather with various things. I think that's about it. I'm not certain if I should come out to my grandparents, though. I guess we'll be seeing since I'll be going there with a masculine appearance and for a month, haha. Wish me luck. (:
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