Hi! ....
That's strange... I'm kinda more embarrassed posting here than going full time
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It was about 3 month ago (15 December 2006) and well... so far it have been so mush easier than I though. I mean, no one have thrown rocks at me, yet
. No, seriously people have been real nice to me. I've not lost anyone that was important to me, in fact I don't know if I lost anybody... I mean, some of them think I'm weird (that's ok i guess most everyone think I'm weird so it's nothing new) but none of the explicitly stated: "You there in girl clothes, I shall not speak to you ever again". One of my friend even really surprised me. I though he would do just as if I didn't exist after I told him partially because when he learned that one of my other friend was bi he made a face like he couldn't even believe he was seated right next to him. Instead he asked me if anyone was bullying me at school for that as if he would have beaten the crap out of them.
However my step father didn't want to hear any of this so I had to move prior full time. He said he will be ok with me once the transformation has been completed but until that we'll have to walk our own path. He didn't really throw me away though... In fact i think he would have liked if we'd continued like it didn't exist (it have been like that since I'm eleven) cause it sure was handy for him to have me around.... let just say that he still have a hard time with the microwave... all these number and cooking button really confuse him
. My mother have been really supportive though. She still is pretty confused about the "elle", "la" and the bunch of 'e' here and there thing (she, feminine the, and words ends with a 'e' when referring to something female in french (not sure how to explain that one.. sorry)). She's trying hard though but I guess it must be difficult for her as we only she each other about once a month and usually for about 1 or 2 hours. But that doesn't really matter to me, she is trying and I think just that is enough.
Right now I'm a little bit depressed. I moved with one of my friend and his gf in last december cause I didn't really know where to go and I though we would have fun and everything.... big mistake!!!! It appear that I don't get along very well with that girlfriend. I didn't know her very well when I moved in... yeah that was the good ol' time
. Since then I learned more about her and it seems that I can't be with her and simultaneously think "I'm having a wonderful time". Here's a typical day: I'm somewhere minding my own business and feeling bad cause I'm at home and she can arrive at any moment. Then she noisily appear and try to find a way to be disrespectful to someone or something... I guess it's not really nice of me.. I could always erase it but... let's not... it helped making me feel better. In fact she is not really trying to piss off people it's just that she so self-centered that it seems impossible for her to notice that there is other people around. Like when she decided that she couldn't be bothered taking out the garbage and just shoved them in the closet. Next time she had to go out she noticed her coat smelled like ->-bleeped-<- then guess what... she just gave it a good soak with some febreeze and left ours bath in this rotten smell that took 3 good frebreeze soak to get rid of that putrid smell and now there is yellow stain running all over it because of that (it's white). GOD!!! I just can't believe how much I hate her....
I'm sorry... i was suppose to introduce myself but ended up speaking more about how my friend's gf annoy me... sorry to make you go through that... At least it helped making me feel better... Oh and I'm french and not that good in english so please be easy on me
Kisses, Roxanne!
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