Hi Alison,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good to have you here. I'm sure your story is very familiar to others as well. So don't worry about how awkward you might feel. What you are doing is perfectly normal. Hopefully one day you'll have the confidence to go out in public, ten do it full time. You'd be amazed at the liberation and freedom you'd experience.
Well, there is a mountain of information, resources and friendships for you here, you just need to jump in and start doing something to move yourself forward. Keep in touch and let us know how you are coping. I look forward to hearing more about you in time to come, however, in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine