I'm also new here. I've been meaning to make an account here for the past few weeks, but chickening out at the last minute, or the 'site would crash as I tried to sign up.
I had an anxiety attack earlier today - they're not too common for me, but they're common enough that they've happened a few times - and since a friend was over and leaving to go to the airport mum made a huge deal at it and was yelling at me. Obviously, panic attack + overhearing my friend saying to leave 'her' alone + yelling = feeling worse. It took a while and a few anti-anxiety meds (generally one will totally knock me out, but today two did nothing but make me feel like my veins were going to explode, so, naturally, I took more) but I finally managed to calm myself down. The extra medication ensured that I slept all day.
Now my mum and I started arguing because of that, with me thinking she should of left me alone because I was gasping for breath and hardly able to do anything, and she was thinking that I should of gotten up. Then she came out with something along the lines "well I'd hate to think you'd been sexually abused but-" and I told her I hadn't, which is true, and she started making more guesses until she came out with something to do with a sex change operation and I just said yes.
Now she knows, we've had no conversation about it (she kept going back to the anxiety and stuff instead of saying anything about it), she's avoiding pronouns (which is preferable) and I still feel like crying and/or jumping off a bridge.
Eh, bad introduction, but I guess that's expected. I just don't know what to do now.
