help parents

[zelda]

I can some what sew
most likely not as good as you tho
I am more of a color and fashion person like you are
except I dont wear what I like yet
but if I go to my prom
i will wear a dress
even if I dont get prom queen

O and jamie D 
I kind of like dressy gloves with a dress

[MadelineB]

I can some what sew
most likely not as good as you tho
I am more of a color and fashion person like you are
except I dont wear what I like yet
but if I go to my prom
i will wear a dress
even if I dont get prom queen

O and jamie D 
I kind of like dressy gloves with a dress

There are a lot of online projects for making your own gloves. I like how they look but lace makes me itch!


Speaking of fashion, I'm excited. My youngest "sister from the same* mister" got the help of her two sons today, and went through her closets for things that will fit me since her weight changed. She is packing up four boxes of clothes and accessories to ship to me, some of them with the tags still on. She made me cry, she said she is so happy to have me for a sister and is just making up for lost time. I LOVE SISTERS.

*as opposed to my dear "sisters from another mister" who are my adopted sisters of the heart, wherever you are.

[zelda]

I hope me and my sister can  be like that
even before I transition

[MadelineB]

I have never regretted the efforts time and sometimes tears I have spent to be the best sister I knew how to be, even all the years everyone saw me as an odd brother or strange son. Caring is scary sometimes, but so rewarding.

[zelda]

I might have been the older brother for some people
I never acted like it
but then to some other people I was always the older sister
and always will be
for I acted like it
I am the older sister to alot of people

my parents are having a discussion with my councelor tomorrow
there is a million ways it could go wronge
and only a few ways it could go right
I only need to find one way to make it right tho
wish me luck
I will need it for if this goes right
I can start living
and if it goes wrong
I will be dead for another year

either way they loss and I win
the question is when

[MadelineB]

I hope things go better than anyone expects, but whatever happens I trust in you. Keep believing in yourself, and eventually the people you love will get there too.
Hugs,
Maddie

[Jamie D]

I think opera gloves are a classy touch.

[zelda]

ya
but they have to go with the out fit
to work
or they just look stupid

[zelda]

HI
everyone
me sorry I haven't been on in a wail
but things are getting worse
and nothing is going how I want it
and would like someone to talk to

[MadelineB]

Hi Zelda sweetheart. I'm sorry you aren't getting the support you need at home since you came out to your family. Many of the people here have been through what you are going through. If you can just survive your last year of high school and start living on your own, your life may get a lot more positive for you. I've gotten to know you as the wonderful young woman you are, and there's no limit to your potential in so many ways. Please feel free to share your challenges and your feelings. Sometimes it helps to talk things over, and to get different perspectives.

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Zelda,
Sorry to hear you're not moving forward as quickly as you'd like. Maddie has some very good advice that you should think about.

Just talking through the dislikes and events that are slowing you down can be therapeutic in itself. Talking things through will often give you clarity as to what has to be done, even without someone offering their experience.

Give it a go. I'm sure you'll feel better.

Huggs
Catherine

[zelda]

Sarah you said (sorry to hear youre not moving forward as quickly as you would like)
that would imply I am moving forward
but may I correct you
and say sadly I am not moving
or most likely I am moving backwards
getting sadder and more mentally unstable every day for going as what my parents want me as
so the only thing that is slowing me down
is my parents don't
LOVE me

[MadelineB]

Zelda sweetie I'm sorry your parents don't understand and accept their wonderful daughter right now, and still love the idea of their son that they hold tightly in their hearts. Maybe one day they will come to know and love YOU too. Right now youve got to keep loving your self and know a great life IS waiting for you.

[zelda]

what do you think keeps me going
why I am still here
I am in a tunnel
and I am hopping the light at the end of the tunnel
is not a train
I am hopping it is a free life
but what is the killer
is not knowing how long the tunnel is