Hi Bookworm,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. Sydney in particular, but that may be of no interest to you at all. Just thought I'd break the ice with that slight diversion.
I'm pleased you have taken the hardest step of all, and that's making that decision to do something about your confusion. That's more than half the job done. The rest of your life from now on is just sorting out the details. Little bit like unpacking after moving
house.It appears you live out of boxes for years.
You made an interesting observation about your possible relations with women. You didn't know whether you wanted to be one, or be with one. Let me just throw in another perspective. Certain women appeal to you because of a specific aspect. Like the fashions they wear, their hair style, body shape, mannerism, or something else you identify with that you would like as a part of your makeup. Not true in all TG cases, but can be in some.
As you're not quite sure how to explain yourself to anyone, nothing unusual about that. Does your school/college/Uni have a student counselor you can start discussions with about it? With the idea of finding a counselor who understands TG issues. When you understand yourself better, you are able to tell people more confidently about your feelings and desires. Sometimes telling your parents with out this understanding, they just put it down to 'a phase' you'll grow out of. Nothing could be further from the truth.
Whatever happens, keep in touch and let us know how you are coping. But in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
