..and it went completely different than my positive or negative expectations.
I guess my position is unique in that my mom is an LCSW, so her initial response was to begin therapy on me which was rather off putting. She began asking questions about what triggered these feelings and when (which I had no answer for) she then started bringing up different disorders she thought I might have that would cause me to have transgender feelings like body dysmorphic disorder with my small hands (ya she was pulling out every possibility
) which I also had to debunk.
After the therapist side of her was finished, the conversation turned more supportive. She told me she was in shock but that she has learned from being a Christian that god teaches us to love everyone no matter what and that she will always love me without question whatever my decision. She wanted me to find her resources that she could read since gender issues aren't her area of expertise and she also wanted to at some point go with me to the gender therapy. However she didn't want me to tell anyone else yet especially my dad who is not as accepting as she is of these things. She told me she always knew I was hiding something but never could figure out what.
Afterwards it's obvious to me that she is still in shock and probably going through or will go through the stages of loss so i'm sure the road ahead is still long.
