I dont mean this in a bad or judgmental way, but how can you even think of pleasing another person if you do not even want to or have pleased yourself? Being intimate goes both ways and shouldnt just be one sided. I would imo get to know my own body and try to experience what pleasures me first. Also, taking hormones at this point with not much if any experience is not a good idea. You might like pleasuring yourself if you had a more positive attitude about your body. I never "hated" a part of my body, but MTF's lets face it have a much more functional result generally, not to mention aesthetics. Alot of FTM's will just keep what they have after finding out they have a better success fulfilling both parties needs just letting things stay the same, at least until you know for sure. To even think surgery is much to premature. You need to discover yourself and start liking your own body before thinking about anyone else. I have seen many do things too fast and without much research, then later regretting it.
