Hi noneatall,
A big welcome to Susan's family. Sorry to hear you are having doubts as to what to do. Half the trick to understanding your journey is to open up to your circle of influence. Discussing the pro's and con's, available option can often open up new horizons to your understanding of yourself, what you want and where you want to go.
We, your family are hear to listen and help you through this labyrinth of opportunities. Look forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, however in the meantime be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine