I'm due to have my SRS on the 29th, by Phil Thomas in Brighton UK. 'm getting my surgery on the NHS, and would be interested to hear from other women in the UK who have either had surgery with Thomas, or elsewhere on the NHS (I understand Bellringer does the same technique as Thomas). I must say all my reports of Thomas from people in the UK are good, an that he is consistent, which is reassuring, but still I don't think I can ever know enough.
As I said in another post I'm really nervous and scared about the surgery. I worried something will go wrong, or it won't feel right etc etc. I guess most of this is normal and reading other posts here helps, but still I'm pretty afraid.
the main things that scare me can pretty much be summed up as follows:
1. How much it will hurt, I am a total whimp with pain.
2. Having to have needles, drips etc in me, as I have a massive phobia of needles and particulalry anything around my wrists.
3. Getting home, me and gf (who is coming with me) plan to get a lift with her parents. But since they don't know I trans we're going to tell them I'm having emergency gynocological surgery. I had planned to get the train home, but this seems to be out from waht the nurse told me.
4. How long it will be before I'm mobile/not bleeding. As I said in another post, I have a very active social life and I'm really worried about missing out on events. I know this sounds stupid but being with my friends and at folk music events is really important to me, and it really upsets me that I'm going to miss several of them, even if it is for a good reason.
5. My weight. I'm 14 stone 11 pounds at the last count, and 5'11''. When I saw Mr Thomas in the spring I was 16 stone and he said I should get down to 14 stone if possible. According to my BMI I'm still very overweight, but looking at myself in the mirror I'm not out of proportion and none of my friends would say I am overweight. I'm quite musclely and fit (I can walk 25 miles in a day easily) and I have had a lot of problems with eating disorders, so lossing more weight really isn't easy. What I am most worried about though is whether this target of 14 stone was a suggestion or a deal breaker and whether my weight is going to disrupt my surgery?
Anyway look forward your replies.
Emma