I have been struggling with my gender issue since i was about 15 or 16 i am 23 now. I had got to the point where i was going to go to my doctor and tell them i wanted a sex change but for some reason i couldnt tell my gp today while i was at the doctors.
Tonight i was spending time with my farther in working on a bike and i knew that if i told my dad how i feel that he would know what to do so i told him.
He had a long talk and he said that there is nothing wrong with the way i feel and he also went on to say that he thinks that why i feel like i do is because of the loss of my sister and he also thinks that in a way i was trying to replace my sister he also said that he thinks that it also had something to do with me feeling guilt because my sister passed away and i didnt. I never told my dad that i wish i had died instead of my sister and i think what he says has truth in it.
I feel so much better for talking ot my farther about this and i am so glad that he did not get upset and tell me to leave.
he also said some other things to do with my feelings of wanting to be a woman.
I have decided not to go ahead and try get a sex change but instead i will carry on cross dressing.
I will still wear things underneath my man clothes and just fully dress at home.
I have known my fem side for such a long time i would not want to shut it out.
I accept it and i am happy with just being a cross dresser.
Also now i have told my father this i feel more close to him and now i know that i can tell him anything.
I really feel like crying right now and i am really happy i talked to my farther.
