Hydroceal DRs are abusing me on island.

[angiejuly]

Ok Hydroceal is fluid leak into the scrotum. Mine has grown to the size of a soft ball. The urologist on island has been messing with me since feb trying to get me off state ins so she does not have to do any surgery. I cant take the pain anymore. IO went to see her monday got bad directions and went to the hospital she is affiliated with. They said go to emergency since it is painful and they will do the surgery. I went and since I am on state ins. they did whjat I said not to do. They gave me drugs intead. I could not gop home till next day so I stayed in the e room loby. With the pain and lost hope I took a razor appart and cut the sack only 3" and had more layers and nothing would come out. After they brought me back in I finally met the urologist and she was 1 loving seeing me in pain, very judgmental, did not even drain the pressure and only gave me a to make a follow up appmt in 6 to 10 days. I need this thing done now. The nurses in the hospital without saying anything where making me feel very much like they are rooting for me to get forced surgery. They see the drs. leaving me in pain because of state ins. So I have to cut again.
All you comments that are not anatomy advise are extreamly judgemental , rude, and thinkin g you are better. I want anatomy help to do enough they must do surgery with GRS but learn what I can leave for them to do for my safty. I cannot have them put me back together. This is a statement against DRs. for turning this island into drug addiceted bums. I am in pain and said "do not send me out of here with drugs I need the pain gone not covered up". The nurse left a bottle of lodicane and after I left I realised what they where saying. Saying take it and do it again. They liked I did it in the eroom for safty and minor just need to go a little more . The psych in the hospital gave me a clean bill of mental health. It seemed she was thinking I was crazy for taking this ->-bleeped-<- so long.
Anatomy help please? Screw you and your oppinion  Help me out or just be nice. I give love I expect it in return.
Love you ...

[Cindy]

Hi Angie,

Calm down Honey,

Just ask the Doctor to either drain the testicle and to have an ultra sound examination in case you have testicular torsion.

There is no reason why you would not be given medical help. Unless you are under the influence of alcohol or drugs.

Explain clearly to the nurse and Doctor what pain you are in and ask for help.

We are here for you darling

Cindy

[lilacwoman]

Why is Hawaii so backward?
I chat to another TS who left the place due to transphobic medics.

[angiejuly]

utrasound was done. The dr really is enjoyng me being in pain and no she refused to drain it. It is really that bad. It is abuse. I have been traying since febuary. Her reseptionist does not hgive me appointments then she did and never told me as an attempt to get me kicked off ins. Now she said if I want orchiectomy with it I have to see her gatekeeper only. My PHD tharipist and other tharipist here  is unacceptable to the urologist. It must be her gatekeeper. She is treating me as if I just started transition now. Been on hormones six years. Then she said it needs to be a danger to have the testicals. It is. I am on estrogen and can lower the ammount without testicals. Hawaii is messed up with medical and very trans hating. I have to do it myself. Now please. I would like anatomy help and pictures so I can do enough surgery ids forced then call nmedia and give thenm the story how I was driven to this from pain they refused to help me with other than putting me on opiets. They put everyone on drugs here and send them away. She will take out the stiches oin a week but no surgery even though utrasounds have been done on this thing 6 times here. It is all they do then no relief. Someone must step up and expose this ->-bleeped-<-. It is evil. She is all high on herself anbd thinks her rigarous education gives her the right to think of herself as all knowing . She was rude, judgemental and non empathetic for my tears. Now if you choose to not help  me I will cause more damage than I need to but it must be done. I am getting lodicane soon and that is when I will do it.  I came here because perhaps other transsexuals that cannot handle testicals without the pain and growth should understand the near suicidal pain I am in however the problem is parts I do not want anyway. The hospital psych nurse said I would have been a crazy person to take the pain and not try to get forced surgery. She will not hold me in thge psych and hopes I get the help I need. The nurses are supportive of me not taking ->-bleeped-<-. They see quest patients abused by this and sent of to start drugs over and over. Hawaii is not a state mind you. It is an oppressed country. The deliberatly fill the place with drugs and ice to keep revolt down but I am standing fully against it all, connecting the dots , getting loud and going t6o ask the Hawaiians to make hawaii dangerous for anyone who claims this is America. America is not wanted here and is derstroying good people. The courts are impossible freemason run atrocitiy to the people. Police are a revinue service for the city. They do absolutly nothing but rob the public. They have pissed off an anerchiust that will do this to be herd and call for America to be thrown out. It is an illeagal taskover. Sorry Americans, I may be from there but I am here and will never go back to that horrible country. I live in a foren natition. Hawaii belongs to those with open heart chakras and none other. Please help me with an anatomy lesson so you will know I will not bleed to death before the ambulance comes. Thank you I am burning the flag as I write this. had one right here. LOL Anarchy!!!!!!!!

[angiejuly]

I do not drink or use any drugs, eat vegetarian and mostly organic off the land and sea. Coconust, seaweed, mangos, beans, mostly Aina food. The reason to not help me is Greed. I am going to expose this ->-bleeped-<- but must be a public out transseual and am willing to do this for all. Lead by exsample, stand up for what is right and do it for the others. Love is what we give and expect nothing in return. Rare in a service to self society.