I feel disgusted with human sexuality.

[Empty Miroir]

I don't know why as of lately that I feel this way. I feel biased and judgmental when this hatred of sexuality comes up out of no where. For the longest time I've wanted Top surgery but now I'm starting to want a hysterectomy as well, if it would stop the sexual urges. Sorry about the rant everyone, I just stumble upon conversations online and witness people being openly perverse, it just really causes a lot of anxiety issues.
Especially with pornography. It's like a mockery to sexual nature and I just lose faith in humanity when I hear so many people (men especially) buy into the disgusting thing. Maybe it's due to the fact that it's legal prostitution that gets me so upset. I don't understand why just having a video camera in front of them suddenly makes it okay. I don't understand why people can disrespect themselves and their bodies so easily for a bit of currency and attention.

I'm sorry again for ranting, I just don't want to be part of this rat race anymore. 

[aleon515]

You could be asexual. I don't feel this way but some asexual people feel disgust with sex. OTOH, it could be related to your trans-ness. Might check out asexuality.org
Good people and some good info.

--Jay Jay

[Zoidberg]

I want to point out the difference between being disgusted by sexuality and not having sexual attraction. It is possible to feel disgusted by sex and be asexual, but it's not a requirement by any means.
While you may not respect the decisions of porn actors, it's important to remember to respect them as people. While some get into the industry out of desperation, there are also those who love what they do.

[ativan]

I'm sorry again for ranting, I just don't want to be part of this rat race anymore. 

No need to be sorry for how you feel.
There are those of us that do want you around, you know?
Rat race or not, there are many people here, good people, who share your sentiments one way or another.

This is the part were it's your turn to discuss this, if you care to.
We will listen.
Ask for advice and you will get some.
Can't vouch for the quality, but hey, we are a diverse lot.
We will listen.

Ativan

[aleon515]

I want to point out the difference between being disgusted by sexuality and not having sexual attraction. It is possible to feel disgusted by sex and be asexual, but it's not a requirement by any means.

No, no. I am not at all disgusted by sex and I clearly ID as asexual. I don't even mind talking about it. It is definitely not "required".

--Jay jay