I don't know how to start, but I suppose many of us have had moments like these. I kinda suffered a bit of a breakdown this afternoon after messing up once again. I guess I'll never learn. I gotta be thankful though, I didn't do anything stupid (I was shaving). I suppose there's always something left to lose and I just have to keep remembering the good side of things, too. But I just lost it, cause I couldn't take it anymore. My head hurts so much for battling the scum of the earth, which can suck if they are an important part of your 'family'. And being dragged down almost 24/7 doesn't feel healthy at all, something my skyrocketing stress levels can testify.
This I say because I think I REALLY need to start taking the magic pills, quite ASAP. So I have my next appointment in less than two weeks, and I wanted to ask you what should I say/do to have this wonderful lady agree with me. She's been really supportive and eye opening at times, we've discussed pretty much the basics, and then some stuff that was blocking me a little bit, psychologically. I've sincerely progressed a lot but I need to take the next step, cause the crises are crippling sometimes. I'm also not going through the easiest of times as I've got to study quite a bit and get my life in order, but I'm getting there. October could/should be the best time to start.
So, do you have any suggestions? She knows that I'll be over the moon as soon as she mentions it, but maybe I just need to make an impression?, as, you know, showing how composed I am and all that. It's also been a while since the last visit, so maybe when we get up to date with things she'll probably give me the thumbs up.
Thank you so much,
E.
