@ Felix - "What I do when I'm really angry is I pretend that I'm operating a machine, that my corporeal self is a tool and I'm just playing a video game or acting in a play or something. All the horrible feelings are fire and I have to walk through it skillfully. It doesn't always work." thats an interesting way of dealing with your anger. ive never heard of anyone thinking that way before. that's really creative
"I'm angry or sad a lot of the time, and I wish the world was more fair, and I'd probably break things too if I thought I could get away with it. Hang in there. It does suck. It's okay to be upset about it."
im angry or sad a lot of the time too. it's like i flip from one to another without a break of peacefullness or anything. i only feel the need to destroy things because if i dont i feel like i'll end up doing something destructive to myself. and thanks for your support and kind words bud, i really appreciate it.