Genderfluidity stuff – help?

[whitevoid]

Most of the time I hang around the more neutral side of feminine. Once in a while though, for hours or weeks, my brain forgets what sex I am, but eventually I'd swing back.

I'd know what was going on intellectually, but I'd always get confusion/disgust/anxiety so I'm wondering what I should deal with first. Is there something specific that I should be focusing on?
Past advice included links on general anxiety and cross dressing tips, like on chest binders.

What annoys me:
I don't enjoy being too concerned about appearance, or having to hang around the mirror too much. I just want to grab a T-shirt and get out the door like I normally do (and really I've got enough not-particularly-girly clothing to get by). It seems doing elaborate stuff just draws my attention to what feels wrong.  D8

And it's those "this feels wrong" messages I'm not sure how to argue against, since they treat parts of my body like foreign objects.
"Are these supposed to be there?"
"Dude, it's been like that for half a decade, what.  And I'm pretty damn flat to begin with – the hell you going on about?"

...and then I get picky about my voice.  *falls out of chair*

Mind dumping random solutions my way? Pretty please?

[aleon515]

I'm not genderfluid, but there are people that do not stay gender fluid, they tend to become ftm or mtf (depending). Just saying as I don't know how new this whole thing is to you. (I mean to a lot of us this is not "new" but it is the first time for what ever reason we paid attention to it.)

Anyway, I am going to say that sometimes presentation does seem to help you figure out what is going on. How do you feel presenting as male, does this feel good to you? How would you feel presenting more male? Better or not as good? That sort of thing. It may *not* be who you thought you were but I also didn't care what I wore and now all of a sudden it makes a lot of difference. Same with binders, packers that sort of thing. Might sound trivial. But let's say a binder and/or packer makes you feel LESS dysphoric than you have a piece of info.

Is there a transgender center near you? You might find a group (something like a mixed group, rainbow group, etc.) might be good at your point. LBGT groups sometimes have a trans group that meets a couple times a month.

Another thing, you might think about finding a gender therapist.  See this list:
http://www.lauras-playground.com/tg_resources_laura.htm

--Jay Jay