Feeling lonely in the world

[Kiss]

Hey, I'm kind of new here and I am not sure where I fit in. My name is Kris (*previously Christopher Michael yay me) and I am M2F toying around with androgyne.

Since I have come out as whatever I have been cut off via email from seeing my younger brother and sister with physical threats from my stepfather. My brother hasn't provided any support, my dad told me via email that he would never accept me as I am, also stating when his partner died that he is happy she didn't see me this way. My supportive partner (I have been out to her for 7 years) has been suffering depression with a suicide attempt that her apparently supportive family has blamed my trans status for.  That includes a death threat from her brother.  My therapist has said that my nervous/anxious state is due to a lack of grieving for what I have lost, which seems to be almost everyone including my friends. I don't believe my partner is at risk of harming herself atm, but she is still very down and we are having money problems which is stretching our relationship.

I would love to hear from anyone who has had a similar response from ppl.  Especially if anyone lives is Aus.

Thanks

[Brooke777]

I have not had a similar experience, but I wanted to offer you my support. I am so sorry you are going through so much. I am here if you need to talk.

[Kelly J. P.]

 I can relate to feeling lonely in the world, but I haven't had to deal with physical threats against me... mostly people just stopped talking to me. I guess my personal solution was to make my own world, and it's been fun so far, though I'm really just starting out...

Your situation sounds many times more stressful than anything I've seen, so I wish you the best with it, and I really hope you can bring some light back into your life, as difficult as that may be.

[Kiss]

Thanks.  I guess I am just lacking a sense of community, so to talk about it is good.

[Carleyxo]

Feel free to talk to me whenever you want, I went through the same sort of thing at 17, but without the threats.
I basically HAD to make that choice there and then, be who i wanna be, or carry on trying to suppress it.
Of course I had to choose what i wanted, some people may say it's selfish, but it had to be done.
I lost alot of friends when they started finding out, my gf at the time we eventually ended it because she was slightly mental.
My Dad more or less pretended like i wasn't there half of the time and treated me like ->-bleeped-<- for about a year.
So yeah, the sacrifices we have to make for a better future i guess =]

[justmeinoz]

Hi. It sounds like your family are like many unfortunately and never really were one.  Sad but true for lots of other people besides those of us who are trans too.  The family we create is usually a lot better anyway.

If there have been threats made I would simply refer them to the Police, you don't need things like that, and maybe it will shut them up for good.

I have to admit that my own transition has been pretty smooth, probably largely due to moving from rural Victoria to Hobart, but I  suffered from anxiety and depression for so long before transition, due to undiagnosed GID that I probably just haven't noticed any transphobia that has no doubt occurred since. 

If your partner has stayed with you that is a big plus, give her a hug from all of us without.
You can PM me if you want to discuss any specifically local issues.

Karen.

[Cindy]

Hi Kiss,

I'm in Adelaide and if you need to talk you are welcome.

I would try very hard to ignore the sort of self centred threats and comments that are being thrown at you. Sometimes family do try to place the blame of their ignorance on you. Which is pretty dumb.

You can pm me at any time

Hugs

cindy