(im on a phone, so bare with me) So... It's my bithday tomorrow. I HATE my birthday. Something bad happens every year and when I was younger I would be the awkward kid sitting alone in the corner. At my OWN birthday party. For my 16th birthday all my friends bailed at the last second. Two years in a row my dad was in jail, then he went to jail a few days before my birthday the next year. My ex knows how much I hate it. Still got dumped over the phone at 1am a week before last year... And then my sister insisted on a big party but went to the emergench room and everything got canceld. My mom and I went to the movies instead and my sister got mad at ME, on my birthday, because I didn't want to wait til midnight to eat dinner :x
This year, I got ky period. If you have bad disphoria, stop reading now. If you could use a horrible "this is pretty funny so long as it never happens to me" kind of story, keep reading!
Shark week started while I was at school, didn't have anything with me and i couldnt use a girls bathroom for stuff. Luckily I made it home fine. I had to go home for the week cause my friend was away on a naval base and I fekt creepy staying at his place alone. Really hate being at ky mothers house! He wanted to make sure this weekend was awesome ao he has been driving from MA/NY border to RI for work and periodically stopping by the VT/NH border to see me. Finally Thursday night he can stay here for the rest of the weekend. Yesterday were lying on a hammock relaxing for a few hours, I start to get up cause i felt some dripping... He tells me I bled through my pants. Onto the hammock. It was disgusting. This is probably theworst period Ive had ib YEARS.
Last night, since we practically live together and haven't seen eachother much well, I'm naturally a horny little monster. I was actually feeling comfortable with my body and wanted front sex. I dont like period sex, but I honestly didn't give a sh*t last night. Again, I sont normally bleed much at all. There was blood everywhere. From under J's balls to his bellybutton there was blood. He was really cool about, he's still laughing about it now, we took a shower but he was carefull to not let me see it until most was gone. Even told me to cover my eyes when he turned the lights on. It was awful. I started crying in the shower and I dont cry much. Just awful. But at the same time, if this happened to any of my friends i woukd probably be laughing. :x
J told me that maybe thjs is my horrible birthday experience and 1. I sure hope he's right cause Im basically wearing an effing diaper to bed and am still bleeding and have to spend time around my ->-bleeped-<-ty family pretendkng to be happy tomorrow, 2. I think for the fist time someone actually understands just how bad periods and babies and girly issues really are for me.
Oh, almkst forgot. Today I get home and my dog is sitting in the yard and 'girl stuff' is everywhere. I go up to my room and she pulled them out kf the trash can. It has a lid on it... The lid was STILL on it. Condoms, paper towels, everything. I just don't even knkw what to do anymore. I hate my birthday! Sorry for the rambling, I really needed to just get this out because my mother is coming home tomorrkw and she is convinced Im a lesbian. I like girls... But for mw its penises > men > women > vaginas. Sorry mom! And now its thunderjng... Imma cuddle with my cat and J and hope this was the worst it'll get!
Seriously though. I. Absolutely. Hate. My. Birthday.
