Others, feel free to use this thread also to vent about crappy stuff that's happened to you lately. I'm using it as a way to just let go of some of this recent stuff that's pissed me off.
#1 Invalidators
I seem to have run into a number of people lately who, whether they consciously mean to or not, completely invalidate me. I'll give you an example. I recently told someone I was trans and my theory on how I ended up with the brain and body I have. Well, the response was, "Oh well my mother had that condition and I was a total tomboy just like you". No, actually, you are not just like I was and also I was never a tomboy. I was just a boy with the unfortunate luck to not have the perfect body to go with that. Another example. I said something like, "I am way hairier than the average 'female'." To which I get a response, "Well there's plenty of females who are hairy like you." What part of NOT FEMALE are people not getting? And the last f'ing thing I want is to have what I'm saying be completely invalidated by someone telling me I'm just pretty much a "normal female".
#2 Dealing with parents
My mom gave me a lecture how I shouldn't go places that are "far" alone. Her reasoning? Because I'm "female" and "there's a lot of nuts" out there. She already caught me on a bad day where I was already pushed to the edge but I just let it drop with the response, "I'm not going to live my life cowering because of the gender society has labeled me". She will never understand me and I'm over trying to make her understand. Beyond that ... what is it? 1950? Women need to have their hand held when they go any place 10 miles from home? Ever since I moved out of my parents house (this was like around 16 years ago no less) she's laid it on super thick with the "you're female, you need to be 'careful' out in the big world" thing. WTF. Seriously irritating.
#3 Stupid health stuff
I actually do have internal female parts that apparently aren't completely atrophied and this weekend I had this crazy ass pain in my abdomen. Like sharp pain to the left plus feeling all hot and clammy and shaky followed by actual blood happening. I was seriously like o_O because that particular organ that makes disgusting things like that happen is supposed to be defunct. So I'm a whole bunch of WTF right now and while it sort of stopped I'm totally freaking out. I don't know even how to deal with anything like this. So I rang up my doctor friend and basically had to tell her my whole story (so now she knows the "real me") and she says she thinks an ovary is freaking out or something. So I may have to have some sort of ultrasound thing done to see what's up in there. She's totally against any form of hysto because she said within 5-10 years the space that leaves causes your intestines to prolapse into your bladder (this I did not know and I did not want to know). At the very least I'm getting another hormone test done to see wtf is up with my levels lately. I already told her that I'm not keen on taking any HRT (she's all into "bioidential" HRT) but if it comes down to it I am not under any circumstance taking any form of E. The only potentially good thing that may come out of this is I may get to test T again, but it would depend on what my cholesterol levels are and if other hormones are completely out of balance she's unwilling to give me just that one. I already told her my hormones have never been "balanced" for a female body, but she says if there's something going haywire it might indicate something's more unbalanced than normal. Either way, this is totally ->-bleeped-<-ty and something no guy should ever have to deal with.
#4 General Stress
All of the things above and a whole bunch of work crap are just adding to the stress load lately. Stress is one of those things I constantly fight against and feel like it's a losing battle. I really need to find more ways to relieve stress. Anyone got any good suggestions for that one?
