What made you unhappy today? v2.0

[Edge]

My friend keeps talking to me about her problems and I don't particularly mind that since she does need the support. However, I don't trust anyone because everyone I've ever trusted has any sign of vulnerability from me to try to bring me down. (They failed. Don't even bother trying.) This is obviously lonely and that is currently bugging me a bit (that will pass). So when I'm dealing with my own feelings, plus confusion over my gender, plus university and I have no outlet and then she tells me about her problems, I feel like she's taking me for granted. Like I'm getting nothing in return.
Today, she asked me if I could help her with her son. She texted me this while I was in class and I had a lab in the afternoon. Needless to say I said no, but it does bug me that she would ask when she knows I'm at school.
Oh and she also wants me to keep babysitting her son on thursday evenings. She doesn't come home until past 9:30pm. I have a toddler too that needs to get to bed. I am going to be moving in November which will require travel time after that if I were to continue babysitting for her. Heck no.

[Shantel]

Oh and she also wants me to keep babysitting her son on thursday evenings. She doesn't come home until past 9:30pm. I have a toddler too that needs to get to bed. I am going to be moving in November which will require travel time after that if I were to continue babysitting for her. Heck no.

Sounds like you're dealing with a self absorbed type, she's the center of her universe and you are obiting around her for her benefit. Could be kind of toxic for you Edge, it might be curb time for her for your sake!

[Edge]

Sounds like you're dealing with a self absorbed type, she's the center of her universe and you are obiting around her for her benefit. Could be kind of toxic for you Edge, it might be curb time for her for your sake!

Yeah I'm going to tell her I can't keep babysitting for her and keep saying no when she asks me to go beyond what I am willing to do.

[eli77]

Migraine AGAIN today. That makes what? Three in the last week? Stupid body screwing me around. I was nervous enough about this not-quite-a-date thing tomorrow already. Now I get to do it in the zombie-haze of a post-migraine day. Great.

But I guess it's my fault. I stayed up too late last night cause my sister was here and also I ate chocolate. So migraine. I feel sometimes like my body has a built-in fun-limit. This much and no more or you get the cattle prod to the brain again. Sigh. Time to go curl up in bed and feel sorry for myself.

[Your Humble Savant]

Lack of sleep 

[Jam]

Migraine AGAIN today. That makes what? Three in the last week? Stupid body screwing me around. I was nervous enough about this not-quite-a-date thing tomorrow already. Now I get to do it in the zombie-haze of a post-migraine day. Great.

But I guess it's my fault. I stayed up too late last night cause my sister was here and also I ate chocolate. So migraine. I feel sometimes like my body has a built-in fun-limit. This much and no more or you get the cattle prod to the brain again. Sigh. Time to go curl up in bed and feel sorry for myself.

Yikes! Doesn't sound good, maybe you should go to the doctor?

I'm unhappy because my body is stupid and refuses to sleep on a night even when I'm obviously shattered. I really didn't want to miss a day of college because I will miss loads after my surgery 
Well I'm going back to sleep now, hopefully I'll feel better when I wake up

[Cindy]

In class a friend of mine got insulted badly by another classmate and I feel guilty for having not said a thing about it.
Plus the insults kinda effected me too. Oh well, guess I learned something new.

It is a hard thing to do. A very hard thing.

Standing up for people is never easy. You risk abuse yourself. And you need to appreciate that.

Not standing up also lessens you. Every time you allow a bully to pour its s**t on someone you lose a piece of your self, until finally you are nothing.

I'm not criticising BTW.  I have spent many an hour hiding and quaking. Hoping stuff would go away. Let someone else deal with it. "'I feel your pain' but please don't ask me to share it as I'm not strong enough" was my prayer and chant for many years.

It is no longer.

No one stood up for me.

I will never let that happen to someone else. I will never stand back and watch myself being raped because people were afraid to intervene.


I'm sorry I don't mean to admonish or insult you. I hope I did not and if you feel I did my unreserved and public apology.

Hugs

Cindy

[Jam]

I am sick to death of spending money fixing the countless things that go wrong with this car, it is a constant money pit. But I need it and I can't afford another.
People when I tell them just laugh and say 'its your first car it's supposed to be like that' and I'm sick of hearing it. It's like they give no thought to how much of a burden it is on me financially. My parents can't afford to help me with any of the costs, it's all on me. frankly I spend so much just filling the thing up so I can get to work and I can get to college, that I don't have enough left to keep fixing it.

[V M]

Bathroom sink emergency     Luckily I have some experience in plumbing so I was able to get it sorted but because of my physical condition it was much more work than I needed at 3 am 

[justmeinoz]

Migraine AGAIN today. That makes what? Three in the last week? Stupid body screwing me around. I was nervous enough about this not-quite-a-date thing tomorrow already. Now I get to do it in the zombie-haze of a post-migraine day. Great.

But I guess it's my fault. I stayed up too late last night cause my sister was here and also I ate chocolate. So migraine. I feel sometimes like my body has a built-in fun-limit. This much and no more or you get the cattle prod to the brain again. Sigh. Time to go curl up in bed and feel sorry for myself.

My son found that caffeine helps avert his migraines by accident, so now always has some Red Bull or Coke in the fridge.  Probably acting as a vasodilator (that is how Viagra was accidentally discovered!), also a friend takes low dose Aspirin for the same effect.


Friend was busted by the Drug Squad for growing a small number of plants for relief of chronic pain.  Seems like it may have been one of a small number of friends that dobbed her in. More attention than was shown when she was assaulted and raped a while back. Not Happy Jan!

Karen.

[Shantel]

Friend was busted by the Drug Squad for growing a small number of plants for relief of chronic pain.  Seems like it may have been one of a small number of friends that dobbed her in. More attention than was shown when she was assaulted and raped a while back. Not Happy Jan!

Karen.

Being an ex cop you know that the departments have a budget and payroll they have to justify and politicians have to pretend that they are doing something about the International drug trade. So they pounce on some little person with a few plants in the back window and make criminals out of them while those dealing in tonnage continue on business as usual. After all, it's big business and budget justification for the cops, the courts and the prison system as well and they need a constant flow to make it go!

[Adam (birkin)]

I have no idea how people can drink on a weekly basis, or even more frequently than that. I barely had any last night (though probably enough, bleh) and I just feel like complete and utter garbage this morning. I expect to be a lightweight since I almost never do it but this is stupid.

I admit it was a really ill-conceived idea in the first place, but can't I have one now and again and get away with it?

[Jam]

I have no idea how people can drink on a weekly basis, or even more frequently than that. I barely had any last night (though probably enough, bleh) and I just feel like complete and utter garbage this morning. I expect to be a lightweight since I almost never do it but this is stupid.

I admit it was a really ill-conceived idea in the first place, but can't I have one now and again and get away with it?

Nope lol 

People can do it because they get used to it. They still have hangovers but they get used to having them. I know people at work who go drinking every weekend and they will go out Friday and Saturday and occasionally some days through the week too. They just come to work with hangovers/ still drunk.

I also know people who have stayed out drinking all night then come straight into work and they are going out again once work is over. All I could think is they clearly don't care about sleep as much as I do.

[Adam (birkin)]

Lol! Obviously they don't. This, to me, is not worth it. I can't even imagine how I'd feel if I got actually fully drunk. =/

[Snowpaw]

Really so so much, I feel like I am spiraling into a psychotic breakdown....

[Jam]

Really so so much, I feel like I am spiraling into a psychotic breakdown....

I'm not good at finding the right words to comfort people but please accept a virtual hug - *hugs*
And know someone is thinking about you.

[Snowpaw]

I'm not good at finding the right words to comfort people but please accept a virtual hug - *hugs*
And know someone is thinking about you.

*hugs* that's somewhat part of the problem. I don't want people to worry about me. sometimes I just want to fade away. As if I never existed in this time line or any other.

[Edge]

My memory and concentration have gone on an unauthorized vacation and I have a psych midterm on friday.

[Adam (birkin)]

I finally got everything i needed to set up my Xbox and play the Resident Evil games, and the damn Xbox isn't in colour.

[V M]

Feeling stepped on