What made you unhappy today? v2.0

[V M]

You don't have two wheel drive?  I got caught in a white-out in the Cascades one year on a motorcycle 

LOL... Two wheel drive    I would like to get one of those lil' bicycle motors that I could flip on when necessary    I'd for shure have to start wearing a helmet though 

[Brooke777]

Macy's

[Jamie D]

Institutional discrimination.  Especially when it originates here.

[muffinpants]

The power keeps flickering because of this silly hurricane

[AngelRose]

Hmm, I'm sore from work today and this bug/spider bite is killing me! Hmm, yeah thats all that sucks about today x.x

[Padma]

I was supposed to be going out to see Let The Right One In tonight, but I got back from sorting out someone's computer, and found an unpleasant and patronising array of replies to something I wrote on facebook. Now I'm too shook up to go out in the dark to watch a vampire film and walk back in the dark. It was a close-run thing anyway.

[Apples Mk.II]

After four months, my therapist is leaving the clinic, exactly when I am at my worst moment. So I have to start with another one I don't have any confidence with.

So unfair...

[Your Humble Savant]

Not getting to sleep in 

[Kaila]

Got caught in the rain and then they ran out of cheesecake at my local cafe. Wasn't all bad though cause another place down the road had some 

[Brooke777]

My son is sick, so I am staying home with him to nurse him back to health.

[Adam (birkin)]

Fell asleep early so I am up early. I want to take the time to try and get a ton of work done on my thesis, but I'm not sure how to get to a place where I can be undisturbed. People in this house, I swear, can sense when I am trying to get work done and am stressed out, because they only bother me while I work. Never while I watch TV or play video games, lol.

If I go to my office I will invariably have students come by.

The university library is now a glorified coffee shop/social space.

I don't feel comfortable going to the public library because there's a lot of homeless people there at these hours...and let's just say I seem to have a very inviting presence for the more disadvantaged in our society.

I need a place with an electrical outlet for my computer.

This may be the lesser of many evils.

[Edge]

I was supposed to be going out to see Let The Right One In tonight

I love that movie. Best vampire romance ever.
I am frustrated.

[Shantel]

I love that movie. Best vampire romance ever.
I am frustrated.

I loved George Hamilton in "Love at first bite" His dance moves were quite good. "Hello....call me Vlad!"

[Jam]

I'm trying to shove off a crush which is ok for now but when I go back to college I'm gunna have to interact with this person 4 days a week in a very small class where everyone hangs out with each other.

[Adam (birkin)]

I'm trying to shove off a crush which is ok for now but when I go back to college I'm gunna have to interact with this person 4 days a week in a very small class where everyone hangs out with each other.

Aww.

So while buying clothes I got continually misgendered. "I need to cancel the transaction for this woman while she goes to get some cash." "She's going to pay in bills." "Watch out for her cart."

I was with a good friend, so I asked her if it was my mannerisms. she said no, that generally, in public, I come off as rather masculine unless I am nervous. Which is what I thought. She said I had down all the details while dealing with the individuals at the store, down to the way I held the shopping bags. She couldn't pinpoint a feature though.

So I asked people I knew at university later. They all said they'd read me as a woman on the street. I asked for age, I got anywhere between 24-30 but the most common was 27/28. One older lady I worked with said "I'm sorry Caleb, but you just look like a very mature woman."

oh well. At least as a woman I look respectable. *sigh* And apparently tough. Which is hilarious to me, because those who know me as a man see me as a rather passive and nervous man. Oh well. If I am doomed to never pass, I may as well look like a woman worthy of respect. That really hurts though, and the thought of never being able to truly live as myself makes me...terrified honestly. I guess I just have to work hard, build myself up, stay strong, in case that does happen so I don't kill myself.

[Shantel]

Aww.

So while buying clothes I got continually misgendered. "I need to cancel the transaction for this woman while she goes to get some cash." "She's going to pay in bills." "Watch out for her cart."

I was with a good friend, so I asked her if it was my mannerisms. she said no, that generally, in public, I come off as rather masculine unless I am nervous. Which is what I thought. She said I had down all the details while dealing with the individuals at the store, down to the way I held the shopping bags. She couldn't pinpoint a feature though.

So I asked people I knew at university later. They all said they'd read me as a woman on the street. I asked for age, I got anywhere between 24-30 but the most common was 27/28. One older lady I worked with said "I'm sorry Caleb, but you just look like a very mature woman."

oh well. At least as a woman I look respectable. *sigh* And apparently tough. Which is hilarious to me, because those who know me as a man see me as a rather passive and nervous man. Oh well. If I am doomed to never pass, I may as well look like a woman worthy of respect. That really hurts though, and the thought of never being able to truly live as myself makes me...terrified honestly. I guess I just have to work hard, build myself up, stay strong, in case that does happen so I don't kill myself.

Don't let it get you down Caleb, we're both in the same boat so we have a lot of company, perhaps we'd better bail so the boat doesn't swamp!

[Lucky Peach]

So I have been trying to keep this to myself since I found out, because there is no point in worrying others about something that may turn out to be nothing. In fact, I haven't told a soul this, but tonight I just really need...I don't even know.

I had gone to the hospital because I wasn't feeling well. They did a bunch of tests, gave me some meds, got me patched up, and I was out the door. They were kind and helpful and courteous and that was great. On the report from one of my tests though on my discharge papers the tech noted that they found a '3-4 mm left upper lobe nodule'

Now, naturally being who I am, when I was feeling a bit better, I looked this up. I've been really down ever since. Tonight though I can't stop crying. Now let me say that the words that follow the incidental discovery are 'doubtful significance in this young patient' and they never said anything to me while I was at the ER so I'm likely just working myself up over nothing, but for the past month really this has just been eating away at me and right now I can't deal with this alone anymore. I've got a doctor's appointment at the beginning of december, and we're going to talk about this, but right now I can't handle the not knowing for until then. I don't want to drag my family into this either because I don't want them to be heartbroken or upset about it when it very likely could be nothing. I mean look at what this is doing to me, how is it fair to do this to someone else? I just don't know what to do.

[Shantel]

Now let me say that the words that follow the incidental discovery are 'doubtful significance in this young patient' and they never said anything to me while I was at the ER so I'm likely just working myself up over nothing, but for the past month really this has just been eating away at me and right now I can't deal with this alone anymore. I've got a doctor's appointment at the beginning of december, and we're going to talk about this, but right now I can't handle the not knowing for until then. I don't want to drag my family into this either because I don't want them to be heartbroken or upset about it when it very likely could be nothing. I mean look at what this is doing to me, how is it fair to do this to someone else? I just don't know what to do.

Perhaps you can get your appointment moved up. If you're living at home with parents you should bring them up to speed on this. I'll keep you in my prayers, meanwhile keep us posted!

[V M]

You are in my thoughts as well Peach {Hugs} Wishing for all to go well

[Lucky Peach]

Thank you both so much. I'm sorry I'm posting this here, but I'm just freaked out and scared right now. I'm trying to stay away from telling my parents what's up until I have a better understanding of what I'm dealing with. I'm trying not to worry those around me because I don't want that whole treating me different thing that happens when something serious is up. It's happened before, and right now what I need is the semblance of life as normal, not my family worrying about me which will only make me feel worse.