School, my dad and names.

[unknown]

Please read this first: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,127444.0.html
Just my first and last post if you don't want to read the whole thing.

So it's just worse than ever  . People didn't really change, but somehow it's getting more intense. I really don't care about school any more. The only thing I hear is she-she-she-she-she and my name. I have found out that I don't really learn anything I didn't already know (other than war, but I don't really need to know who killed who 4000 or 3000 years ago). I'm skipping school at least one time a week because when I'm vary dysphoric the last thing I want to is to make it worse. I have not gotten to school since last friday (I didn't have to go to school wednesday mind you.

I'm really tempted to not go to school tomorrow either, because we have to have the stupid teacher there, but I'm also really afraid that they will throw me out. It might me rally weird to read that. Yes I don't want to go to the school and I would gladly go out of my school, but I still haven't change my name legally and it would kinda just be the same the new place I would have to be. Because in denmark if you are under 18 then you have to 'work' or do education and sadly my comic doesn't count (nor did my former work for some reason).

All of this means I have to do something where everybody can she me. Unless I go stealth. Normally people at my age have gotten into puberty I'm under 18 so maybe people just think I'm one of those rare cases of really late puberty. So that might not be a problem at all.
Then we have my name. I'm unable to change it as long as I'm not out to my dad. My mom and dad don't live together any more, but they still both have to be ok with me changing my name. I'm really afraid of coming out to him because last time I came out he didn't believe me at all and said that someday me sexuality would 'bloom'. I'm kinda afraid he does that again. I'm trying to write a letter to him, but I'm not sure how to tell him.

I'm not sure what to do about the whole thing. Help?

Tl;dr: My school sucks, but I can't quit before I come out to my dad in order to change name. Help.

[AdamMLP]

Do you have to have your name changed legally to have it put onto school records?  If you swapped to another school then they might be able to change the name on the registers, or at least put down a preferred name and ask the teachers to only call you by that.  It would still mean swapping schools though, and I doubt they'd question why you hadn't hit puberty yet, if they do just mumble something about something being wrong with the glands in your brain and say you don't want to talk about it, and that you're going to get it fixed soon.  Most people would have to be an a-hole to keep pressing, especially if you make it sound really personal and upsetting -- which it is.

Is there anyway to get a job that does count?

[unknown]

When I was going stealth when I visited my old school (a school you live on in my country in a year or two) I had this strange conversation:
We where just done with playing a live roleplay when a person asked me something:
him: So what is your gender?
Me: in the role-play? I was a young boy with a skirt, because he didn't understand clothes
Him: no I was asking in real life.
Me: I'm a guy 
Him: sure?
My friend: yes he is 
Him: Why is your voice not lower?!?
Me and my friend then says something about me not hitting puberty yet. I wanted to include the conversation because it was so awkward. Ever since then i have been kinda paranoid about the fact I'm pre-T

About the school thing: I have no idea. I know I can first find another school after the summer break so I might have to go to this place they put all the teens that don't know what to do yet until the summer break. I have heard they get money for not really doing anything. I could go there, but I know there might be a person that have known me in 7 grade. I'm afraid he will out me.

I was trying to get a job, but I got in a female only place and I quickly quit in a vary bad way (I had to call a person because I miss her call. I never called back...) As far as I know I can't get a job in my city.