Quote from: Amy T. on April 13, 2007, 03:31:31 AM
My therapist discussed my timeline and plans, she asked how soon I want to go full time. I said in one year. She responded by saying "I doubt that", but not in the it will take longer, but rather it will happen sooner. She said I have proven I want to go full time sooner than I realize. We discussed goals, and I said the major issue with me is physical as well as chemical. She said taking my frame, health and facial features, passing is not as big of an issue (I am 5'9", I have a small frame, a fairly androgynous face, and I am at a healthy body weight).
I'm not as blessed, being rather tall (6'2"). Passing IS a big issue for me, though it's happened a number of times. But I figured I'd wait until (and if) I passed reasonably well before going full-time. I figured that'd be at least a year of HRT, probably more. Maybe even sell my soul and have facial surgery. No WAY I could start living as Kate before I passed. No way.
A few people (coughmew) warned me. I laughed it off.
I told management at work by around 6 months HRT. Still, I told them and my wife I wasn't going to DO anything for many months yet.
Uh huh. I started dressing in women's clothing shortly thereafter, though it was subtle at the time and no one apparently noticed.
I was out to all the employees by 7 months, saying I'd be changing gradually over the months to come.
A few weeks later, I'm sitting here at my desk in a sports bra, cute top showing obvious breasts, women's pants and shoes, earrings...
And asking and prodding everyone to call me Kate.
So far, I'm still conservative in public, and I KNOW I could NEVER present in public like that, right?
Uh huh... it's gonna happen. Sooner, not later.
It's just... ya just can't STAND it anymore. The pressure builds and pushes and... breaks through everything. It's kind of cruel actually, as it runs against *every* insecurity of mine... and yet I just cannot stop it from happening.
~Kate~