I can't breathe

[Ell]

Hello. After reading some of the resources on this site, and, not to mention, suffering a lifetime, i guess i am at the point where i am about ready to go and see a TG therapist. i don't know how i'm going to do this, or get through it, but it seems that i cannot not do it, either. So, anyhow...

[rhonda13000]

Interpret mine as not at all being in the spirit of malice nor confrontation, but might I gently ask what information would you like to be cognizant of?   

[togetherwecan]

Ell, welcome to Susan's. Yes there is a lot of information and resources here for you and there is support from staff and members too.
I hope you make some new friends and get some good advice along the way.

[Sarah Louise]

Welcome Ell, I know you can find the information you need here.  Sit back and enjoy yourself.

Sarah L.

[Barbara Ann]

Hi Ell,
Welcome to the group. I'm just starting out too. Hang in there, kiddo! You'll find a lot of support here!
Smiles-
-Barb

[Ell]

Interpret mine as not at all being in the spirit of malice nor confrontation, but might I gently ask what information would you like to be cognizant of?  

i can't think of any questions at all. Ever since i made the decision to proceed, my mind has been in a kind of fog. i'm driving around, listening endlessly to Loreena McKennitt's "The Mask and the Mirror." i'm sorry, i don't have much advice to offer. All i have at the moment is my appointment, next week.

[cindianna_jones]

Welcome Ell!  Don't be afraid or timid. We answer ALL the questions here.  And this is really a nice bunch of people.  I'm proud to call them friends.

Chin up!

Cindi

[Kate]

i'm driving around, listening endlessly to Loreena McKennitt's "The Mask and the Mirror."

Beeeeeautiful music!

Welcome to Susan's! I hope we can help you figure out where you need to be... or at least be there for you if you need someone to lean on

~Kate~

[HelenW]

Hi, Ell, welcome!

Alot of us have been where you are now.  Hang in there, it'll get better.  Read the posts, go to the WIKI for facts - you'll soon figure out enough of this to begin to know enough to ask the questions you need to ask.  Chat is really fun, it can be nice to get one on one interaction that way.

I hope we'll get to know you , and you us, a lot better real soon.

Again, WELCOME! !
helen

[Ell]

i'm driving around, listening endlessly to Loreena McKennitt's "The Mask and the Mirror."

Beeeeeautiful music!

Yeh.  It's right up there with Kate Bush's "Hounds of Love" and Nico's "Chelsea Girl."

[rhonda13000]

Interpret mine as not at all being in the spirit of malice nor confrontation, but might I gently ask what information would you like to be cognizant of?   

i can't think of any questions at all. Ever since i made the decision to proceed, my mind has been in a kind of fog. i'm driving around, listening endlessly to Loreena McKennitt's "The Mask and the Mirror." i'm sorry, i don't have much advice to offer. All i have at the moment is my appointment, next week.

Eli, help was not sought but [possibly - I am no authority, but many here are] offered.

Welcome. 

[Donna]

Hi Ell, ask a little or alot just know that there is greatpeople here and lots of support
Welcome and stick around
Donna

[Jillieann Rose]

Hi Eli,
I glad you have decide to move ahead. And seeing a TG therapist is a very good second step.
After joining Susan's that is. Just move forward one small step at a time.
Good to meet you.
Jillieann

[Lucy]

Were here to help Ell, please relax and enjoy your session your doing the right thing, help from a proffeshinal is a good idea.  Hope it all works out for you, enjoy the ride

Luv Lucy

[tinkerbell]

Hello Ell and welcome indeed!

Thank you for your introduction.  As you may already know, there's plenty of valuable information and great people here.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with the site, review the site rules, grab a chair and join our conversation.  Pleased to meet you!  Enjoy your stay at Susan's!

tink

[Jillieann Rose]

Hi Ell,
I'm doing okay.
How are yo doing now? Has Susan's help you?
Are you begin to accepting yourself?
I fought with myself for a long time before I finally realized I need to willingly allow the part that I keep hiding to not only exist but that I needed to embrace it as me.
Do be honest and as open as possible at you appointment with the therapist.
When do you go Ell?
Hugs
Jillieann

[Ell]

Thanks for the welcome, everybody.

i just got back from my first therapy session. The therapist said i should start growing my hair and maybe buy a wig until it grows out. My God! i'm really a knock-out in my self-image, but the mirror says otherwise, & casting shadows of reality on my dreams.

[Suzy]

Hi, Ell!  Welcome to Susan's

I am kind of skeptical about therapists who are that directive.  I think the best ones help you clarify what you know you need to do.  But I hope it works out for you.

Most of us are knock-outs in our dreams.  But that mirror can be brutal, can't it!   But work on it and I know you will be looking great in no time. 

Best of luck, and welcome!

Kristi

[Jillieann Rose]

Ell do you mean your therapists has already deiced you are a TS?
Or what?
Sounds like you have come away from the session with a good attitude. I'm happy for you.
And yes I'm a really knock out too that is until I get in front any mirror, then I just transform into will ... yuck, and double yuck. Not good.

Jillieann

[Trinity]

Interpret mine as not at all being in the spirit of malice nor confrontation, but might I gently ask what information would you like to be cognizant of?   

i can't think of any questions at all. Ever since i made the decision to proceed, my mind has been in a kind of fog. i'm driving around, listening endlessly to Loreena McKennitt's "The Mask and the Mirror." i'm sorry, i don't have much advice to offer. All i have at the moment is my appointment, next week.

You need to play Shania Twain's "I feel like a woman!"